Real books vs. eBooks

There are a lot of things I want to do, like reading all the best motivational books, learning photoshop more, blogging, preparing the books for my major subjects this 2^nd semester. Definitely I can’t do it all simultaneously. I only have few days to relax before classes get started. It will be a busy semester for me, I got all 6 majors and I am also preparing myself for my practicum, hopefully. I am almost there to reach my dreams.

I am a frustrated reader. When I was a child, my father always encourages me to read books because he believes that by reading, you’ll get smarter, I don’t believe that at all, because I am just too lazy reading books, before I read it, I already fall asleep. Lels. Now that I am grown up, I certainly agree to my father! Hahaha today, I am always in a hurry to read books, I have downloaded ebooks, pdf about motivational books from bo sanchez, mitch albom, Rhonda byrne etc. They are one of those popular authors in time now. I am dying to read all of them in one day but I just couldn’t, I still have problems with my habit, I really adore people who are bookworm because they won’t stop until they finish the book. Wish I have that habit.

I love to watch books on the shelves but I don’t dare to get one and read, I am comfortable with our eBooks now. I have friends who still love to buy books from the store where I think every book now can be downloaded already from the net, they say, they still love to turn on the pages, to hold every page so they will feel the excitement of reading, well, that’s their views, they are comfortable with that and I still go for ebooks. Lol

I can’t stop downloading ebooks; I want to have them all in my adobe library so it will remind me to read whenever I have a free time. Wish in time, I have a good habit in reading. =)

Kinarer ang pasasalamat at nag-plug na rin ako!!

Thanks to SEY for helping me solve my problem sa reply2x button ko na yan!! Hahaha at sa wakas na solve niya na hindi gumagana sa chrome but sa Mozilla firefox lang pala pwedi. Though hindi ko pa nasubokan gumamit ng Mozilla dahil kailangan ito ng confirmation sa usb plug-in number ko kasi yon ang nilagay kong number para sa any confirmation. Nasa opisina kasi ako ngayon at hindi ko nadala ang plug-in kaya mayang gabi ko nalang tingnan. Malamang tama na sa Mozilla firefox lang gumagana ang reply2x button na yan. Hahaha lately  naging pahirap sa akin ang bagong reply button dahil sa pagigin inggitera ko ayan tuloy!! Hahaha

I made this post to thank again sa pagbigay ng effort sa concern ko about sa bagong feature ng blogspot, special mention to of course si SEY (14^th street), Kuya Rencee (Making a difference at Soltero), Virgo (The adventures of a virgo guy), Jhengpot (Heaven Knows), Michael (Thepinoy wanderer), si Mayen (clicks and cuts) na kaparehas kami ng mundo na gingalawan, si kikomaxx (kaeplan ni kiko), si haze, at si Ile (A hint ofsunlight), si leah (I am super leah), at kinarir ko ang mag plug!! hahaha sa iba pang hindi ko na nagawang malagay pa dahil ngayon minamadali ako ng mga assignments ko nakatambak!! Haha shet no!! busy ng buhay ko!! Punyets!!

Salamat sa mga dumalaw sa aking bahay, pagkatapos ng mga assignment ko asahang gagala na naman ako sa inyong mga blog at makikigulo na naman ako, na-aadict na akong chumikzmaks sa blogsphere parang drugs ko na ata to dahil hindi complete ang araw ko kapag di ako nakikialam sa mga buhay2x niyo hahaha!! Ito ang tinawag ng instructor ko na emphaty meaning alam ko at nakikialam ako sa buhay niyo!! Hahaha ang sympathy naman daw ay nakikiramay ka pero hindi ka nakikialam. Lels!! May natutunan pala din ako!! Hahaha

Kailangan ko na talaga gawin ang assignment ko or tutunganga nalang ako mayang 4pm sa clase ko. I need to take interview also sa mga social workers who worked in the field for almost 20 years kung nagagamit pa ba nila ang mga principles na tinuro sa kanila, sa totoo lang the way I see it here sa opis, isang malaking HINDI na!! hahaha

Sa susunod ulit kasi busy busyhan muna ako ngayon, magpapaka-emplyado at estudyante muna ako. Lels!! Salamat ulit to all bloggers na dumaan at nakiki-emphatize sa blog ko!! Hehehehe 

Kung ikarir ko na kaya ang pagiging denial queen

I have my own self-worth this time after a long silence about my life. I am a good or a great pretender in showing my true feelings, I am not a showy type of a person, I talk less either. Whenever I am sad, angry I just keep it to  myself until it will reach to it’s highest point na hindi ko na kaya at maburst out ko, sobra pa sa bomba talaga which I find it hindi maganda dahil malalim ang pinaghuhugotan ko. This is me and I am happy now that I am trying to rebuild myself in a manner that I am learning to correct my own mistakes in the past and I learned to be open with my feelings, happy man or malungkot but there are just instances na hindi pa rin nawawala sa akin yong pagiging denial queen ko lalo na pag-naiiyak na ako. Mind you kahit matigas ang mukha ko pusong mammon ako kahit hindi man bagay sa akin ang umiyak! lol

Self-worth because I manage to accept certain things in my life like ano ang ugali ko at saan galing yong ugali at pano ko ihahandle yong ugali ko. There are sensitive issues in my life that I considered, una na yong about sa panghuhusga ng ibang tao sa akin dahil yon ang nakikita lang nila without even asking me kung ano nga ba talaga. Slowly i am trying to understand that minsan we need to be open para Makita natin kung ano ba talaga ang gusto natin sa buhay at ano or san tayo mag-aadjust para wala tayong maapakan na ibang tao.

I am happy now that I gave myself a challenge also na dito sa pagbablog, maging open ako to whatever feelings that I have, may transparency in all the things na gagawin ko sa buhay ko and to share my thoughts, views, ideas without any hesitations and limitations. Chos!! Hehehe maniwala man kayo o hindi, seryos ako sa mga pinagsasabi ko!! Haha (ewan ko nalang kung maniwala pa kayo kung tumatawa ako sa ending!! Haha)

My shifting dreams

This is an archive from my old blog, one of my favorite emotions and thoughts before. I never thought that those visualizations i came through across my life's journey has became my real life and world now.

I could still remember how we used to dream together with my colleagues, how we wanted to be on the top of the mountain, you see I  dreamt to be an architect one day, I never thought that those dreams later than will just shift into some sort of who I actually desire to be and perhaps born to be. nevertheless, things take place for a reason and I’m thankful to the office where I belong now, that helped me to open my eyes in all the possibilities in life and helped me restore myself as well, it helped me to reconstruct my dream and begin to believe that I can have it. Shifting dreams is not that easy, I found my world but it was not my life then. We are born to be great, to accomplish something of worth for which you came into the world for. It has been said that life is nothing more than a search – a continuous search for a cause to live and die for, to be governed by the thought and dreams and propelled by a concealed urge to achieve.  It is unconscious, it is automatic. It is that nagging feeling tugs at you when you are alone, that there is something more. There’s always something more.

I have to open my eyes to full potential. I have to learn to treasure ourselves, know our worth, and look deep into ourselves to discover who we really are and what we came to this earth for. Only then can we be able not to fear our own greatness.

Leaving the old tracks

I was about to make my write up for my English class when I thought of arranging my old books first before I will sit and plan for tomorrow’s assignment. I saw my old architecture books and it reminds me of the life that I had way back there, those memories and learning’s. This is the quote I came up with when I decided to shift my world, “architecture has been my world, but it was never my life after all” – it means that once in my life, I dreamt to be an architect, to be part of the elite community, to stand proud and prove that I can make it even if I am a woman yet my fate shifted unexpectedly.

I dropped that dream, it was a profound and major decision but I stood despite of the hurtful words came from other people. Later on, I have gradually gained my confidence again and eventually I learned to accept that there are things even how much you want it, you can’t have it. I started to work in the social services and there, I have found my life. I felt the contentment whenever I knew I have helped people who are in need. If I was happy with my old world or my old life, I am happier when I started to feel the fulfillment in serving our less fortunate brothers and sisters.

Moreover, when I was done arranging those books, finally I’ve told myself that it’s about time and I am ready to let go what I have had in the past, I am now willing to give or re-sell those books in a half or one-fourth of the original price, this is the time I could finally say that everything is over and I am happy with the new environment and the life where my world is spinning now, I am glad to take part to the social work program of Lourdes College.