Telelalalalala gandang hapon
No claps, no dance and split for the intro of this post since it’s good Friday. (bait ako now, this moment hehe)
Dami ko pang sinabi eh mag-eemote lang din ako naman jowk
Nooooo… I am trying not to. Char!!
Ito ang resulta ng good Friday afternoon ko…
Dahil sa mga kanta na nasa music room, naisip ko ulit yong kanta na matagal ko ng iniwasan dahil sa pagbubuwis ko ng buhay non charing! Hindi ako tinatablan ng blade lang, kahit kutsilyo walang sinabi. CHAIN SAW malamang walang ligtas aking kamay doon lels.
Seryos na ako…
Itong kanta na ito…
If u read between lines you will know what message I am telling you…
Hands up ako, wala akong alam. (seryos yan)
For all you know, ngayon ko lang ito i-reveal roottss. Behind all those smiles and laughter na meron ako, ito ay dahil sumugal ako sa buhay minsan, nadapa ako, at natuto, naging tanga at nabulag (dilat na ang aking mata ngayon promise lol) and that helped me to be a happy person now. This is what i always tell to those people na nalulungkot "sadness will lead you to new happiness" yan lang ang nangyari sakin. lel.
That song, yan ang kwento ng buhay pag-ibig ko minsan (malaking charing!) oo may pag-ibig din ako naman! (i'm counting joke!) Hahaha pero like I said HANDS UP AKO, I’m innocent. (pls I’m so innocent don’t kill me hahaha)
Want to know? Now na? later nalang kaya? Hahaha
Sige na nga. You may judge me or not but it’s up to you. I just want to disclose this to let go of those things behind my smiles and laughter. I don’t want to pretend anymore that I have a great life once in love. I want you to learn too what I have learned in life the same. I am aware with what’s right or wrong yet i never get a word from myself. But it was one of the best decision I made to let it go of that suicidal love (may suicidal love talagang term hahaha), honestly, I fought my feelings, I fought myself, my heart and my brain. It was hard, very hard that I almost lost myself in the process of healing (roootttss may ganyang drama hahaha) and I won after all.
Maniwala kayo or hindi, he was once a blogger and never a single moment I thought of seeing him personally after all knowing the situation. He tried to reach me, he tried to stand in the airport for how many hours but I was tough enough with my decision not to, though I am really dying inside, its killing me seeing him far away from me (kantang kanta lang ang linya ko hahaha) but I need to hold on what is really right for me, my future and his. Kinaya ko though i broke down. (luhod at sinabing kailangan ko ng himala haha)
This is just one of the reason why i left blogging for a while. hihihi
Separately, may real love life talaga ako bago ko siya nakilala and even after him (just same person lang naman). hahaha lol
Love isn’t love after all…
Thanks paparix (papa-usohin para maging official side kick ni papa jack haha) of music room, this gave me a room to open a small box in my life. I felt so free and happy now. so, pwedi na akong mag-artista? hahahaha