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My 4^th year in Christmas blogging although I have missed a lot doing the bloggers stuff. You know the picture greetings, exchange of comments because hey it’s vacation, right?! Just as when you received your greeting from your fellow bloggers, you’re too excited to create a blog post entry saying your way of “thank you’s!” OH! I totally missed that! Where are you all anyway!? Hahaha assuming naman ako eh ano? Kakabalik ko nga lang eh. Chos!

I do understand the “sabaw” moments, tinatamad, busy and simpleng pagod lang magblog. No excuses, nangyari na sa akin lahat ang yan but I am still trying so hard now to be consistent sa pagbablog, (huh!) we’ll see it through.

There are new faces in blogging, even those new members sa PBO, ang dami! I can’t catch up anymore. I’m sorry. Hihihi Anyareh?! Achus! Hihihi Sana ang PBO matuloy ang sinimulan, sayang kasi eh, andyan na yan, konting kembot nalang oh! Wooott. I never heard any activity kasi or sadyang nganga lang ako dahil hindi ko nakita ang update ng PBO hahaha pasensya! Pigilan niyo ako muna for a while? Ples?! Hahaha honestly, ang dami ko ng hindi kilala sa PBO, I may not be one of the founders neither the first batch of members but I’ve seen PBO from the start, it really grew and OH MY! Geed!! Ang laki ng potential! My future! Wwwooott! I’m very sure naman ang mga bagong batch of members now sa PBO, also have the heart to extend their passion beyond blogging or writing. I welcome you all, hindi ko man kayo kilala for now, pasensya, I’ll give enough time to wander around. Hahaha  I just missed a lot of events sa PBO and half ng buhay ko, I regret that! Hahahaha bakit ba kasi ang layo ko sa Luzon!! Hahaha kaloka naman kasi!

I am not yet ready to close my 2014, eh! Kasi I’m still thinking! Hahaha I’m thinking ano bang nabigay ni 2014 sa akin. Hehehe as far as I could remember, it’s all worth it naman, even if sa simula ng taong 2014, saktong January, hindi ganon kaganda pero hindi naman naubos ni 2014 ang bad na nangyari, mas madami pa rin ang good things na nangyari, syempre! Wwoot! Kailangan! Dapat positive tayo no matter what! Hahaha kahit nadapa ka man siguro, isipin mo nalang na yes! Nadapa ako, at may dahilan yan at hindi dahil sa katangahan lang yon! Hahaha

Oh again! I am hitting you sa blog na ito, bumalik na kayo! Utang na loob naman! Ang tahimik sa blogsphere! Hahaha 

Hindi ba kayo gagawa ng bago nito? hahaha  mas masaya na ngayon kasi ang dami na natin pala hahaha buhis buhay ang paghahanap ko sa picture na ito! hahaha 

This is think was 2012 if im not mistaken. wwwooottt.
 payat pa ako kasi! charot! hahahaha

Rub that alcohol more

Under the influence of rubbing alcohol. Lol

Weeee. Woot. I think I am going to burst this out personally or might as well just slip it over a couple of glasses. You know what I mean, I am very good & confident in telling the truth but I just couldn’t say it right to your face. There are hundreds of thoughts exchanged, thousands of word expressed but the truth about you & me, I just find it so hard to tell, so complicated even.

When I let you go that moment, I know that was the best thing I could do. I am following my dreams as you also did. It’s been years I think. I almost forgot what we were, what we had. Life just change so fast. I can’t even remember the last time I said I am going to wait. I am not the same anymore, I am not the person you used to know. I am happy of what I have become, this is not about you after all, I became who I am today because this is what & where I want to be. I forgot the feeling of being cared & loved by someone, or maybe I just ignored that anyway.

Wtf! I wanted to finally divulge this blogsite, for you to know what I’ve been in my life, do you really care? Coz now, I don’t anymore. A few rounds of glasses, this made me stupid, thinking & deciding probably. I am on my way now of starting a new path, my head is telling me that I want you to ride & take a journey together but this amazes me because you know what, my heart doesn’t want to anymore, I swear! I can’t find you in there & I am very happy of this discovery. This is I think – FAIR enough though.

I just love what I have right now & whom I am with – my family & friends, that is. This is the first & last time I am going to share what I had with you in the past. I just couldn’t do it anymore. The fuck it is! Lol but that’s the truth. I can’t deal it. I can’t fight it. My heart belongs to someone I think – that! I never meet it, yet or I may be I met him already but isn’t yet our time. This is the only thing I knew, you’ve seen my worst & supposedly you deserve my best but I just couldn’t afford it anymore to share what I’ve got now & what I think the best I could give. I just simply don’t find you anywhere anymore. I can finally say this, I am closing a chapter of my life where you were there. Thank you, that’s all I can say.

P.S.

Christmas beers are not advisable! Lol

Sniff pa! Singhot pa more!

I’ve realized something today, definitely YES! I know I’m going to regret it for the next five years!?! Yeah! 5 years! Wtf! Ain’t?! I was looking at my old passport and then there boom! Yeyeeh! I looked like a drug addict & a pusher! Hahaha I went to dfa today and one hell of a day almost ang hinugot ko and I am trying to convince myself that moment that YES finally! Oh! This is my chance to at least improve my picture and be happy for the next five years again!?! Ek..ek..klavu processing… wwoooottt!! Anak ni darna kung meron man yan! Pls wag ng ibigay ang bato! Futeks!! If I look like a drug addict nong old passport ko wow! Kumusta naman ang new passport ko, I look like now a drug lord! Wtf! Right?! Shit eh! Hahahahahaa I just couldn’t move on for a while until now! Holy crap! Holy ninja!!! Wala na akong magawa! So keber na sa mga ninja titingin ng passport ko!

Just right after my dfa appointment, I finally got my planner, an early present from teacher kat. Wwwoooottt.. kendeng, kendeng, galaw galaw para hindi mastroke ang taba! Chos! Hahaha Thanks teacher kat for this & it was so sweet and thoughtful of you. I’ll keep in mind that wish, not just for me or you but sa atin yon dalawa! Hahaha wwooott! He will come in the most perfect time and unexpected place. Charrrooottt sa ating dalawa! Hahahaha Cross my fingers that mapuno ko itong planner na ito with God's grace for the year 2015!! 

Humanda ang 2015 ko nito!
AYAN OH! bday ko! haha

Ang sweet ni teacher kat kasing
 sweet ng pusa niya haha

I just love my day totally! Lalo na having a 3 hour straight random conversation with a dear friend! Wwoott! Like imyang said “ate it’s been a while we talked serious stuff!” chos! Hahaha oo! Kasi ngayon we can’t have any proper conversation kasi may bonjing na kami at isang nognog so wwweezz chance puro nalang kalokohan! That’s what this big four do most of the time! Ayey!  

"imyang"
May ganyan! feeling
sensitive case lang ito! lol

"Si nognog at bonjing"
bentang benta ang dalawang ito kaya
para iwas gulo na, tinakpan ang
kalahati ng mukha! chos! 

ang happy signpen na
ballpen ko! haha

Ang babaw ko lang then pag-uwi ko, no joke, I was looking for an old notebook of mine nong nag-aaral pa ako and guess what I’ve found, yes! My ballpen na signpen din! Hahaha natuwa ako! Shit lang! wwwooott! I’ve been looking for this kasi ang alam ko talaga may ganito akong pen eh, kaso nawala so ito na nakita ko na! hahaha

Ay last, this is for a friend, a long time friend who is currently in Japan – like I said, hold on to whatever you are going through, just remember that you always have us, you have a home when you get back soon & we will always be your wings in case you’ll be losing some of your feathers.

Life is so real & beautiful if we just learn to appreciate the small things & acknowledge those people na minsan natulungan ka at andon sila sa moment you have nothing! Thank you & hoping one day I will be given the chance to share also my gratitude to others! (natatakot talaga ako kapag nagiging so seryos ang ending kasi ito na nga ang signs na guguho na ang mundo charrooottt lang! hahaha) wwooottt. tambling tambling ikot ikot and splleettttsss. wooottt.

The TeleMoves

One day I will be able to break my own silence, it’s been almost a year already and yes I know I have moved on from the fact that I had to get through one of the toughest way I could just to understand & help myself believing that there are things in life are not the same the way it has to be.

I told myself then, I should focus on the things na meron ako, forget those nawala because basically they aren’t that important to be with you sa darating na umaga. I think so. I never said that I was right all along. I am just being honest to not just what I think I feel but I am being true to my emotions towards such situation. For all the things I went through in life, I believe naman na I was prepared in the past to face what’s for today. I just can’t believe I made it through all the way! I swear and I admit that it was one hell ride of my life back then.

I am very happy of what I have become after everything. I learn to be humble enough, put some humility to myself, I even learn to listen more. I think the best part there was, I learn to know about what I am capable of and what I want to be as a human being. I learn to value gratitude after all & give away all the love I could share to those who are in need.

It’s just so ironic that because people seen you as a strong woman, a person that would never break in, no one would think or maybe ask “how are you!” that’s really funny to me, really! Why? Everybody thinks that “kaya” mo ang lahat, super duper woman ka sa lahat ng bagay which is a big MALI! We all have our own breaking moments, maybe it’s just that strong people don’t show it often. I always did that however, I just managed it in my own way thinking that “I know there are people out there na mas mabigat pa yong problema nila kaysa sa akin” so I just leave it that way anyway!

Whatever it is, I am pretty sure that I am on my way of getting my own dreams. I may look back one day, but I know it will never be the same then. I am just happy of what I am today & I am living my life according to God’s plan. God must have a great reason why things just happened that way. As long as I know I am not hurting anybody, I am fine with that.

So long & God Bless you always!

Wwwooootttt.. seryus mode akech! Haha 

Version Two point O-hh ( V2.0 ) na si Telelalahbells

So it is! Yes! I’m finally & officially back!! (kailangan may fireworks – wwoossh!! Wwoott!! Hahaha)

Umandar ang pagka-OC ko sa mga bagay-bagay! Yeah! Yeah! I am! I am up for 2 days editing sa blog ko! I just couldn’t stop doing it hanggang I’ll get not just a result but at least better man lang! chos lang! hihihihi More than ten times na attempt to change my header, isang araw na nakababad sa photoshop last weekend! Pumapayat na nga ako ng slight dahil nakakalimutan ko ng kumain! (mga 1 cm lang konting konti – boom! Sayaw sayaw! Haha)

So goodbye this header! Thank you sa pagiging yellow sa aking buhay for the last 2 years na siguro! Wwoott!! I'm so seryos with this header! haha but i mean it kung ano man ang nakalagay dito! The butterfly here - paborito kasi ng "mommy" ko yan, everytime may nakita siyang ganyan sa bahay noon she never failed to tell us "its a soul." Since she's not here anymore with us na rin, yan ang nagpaparemind sa akin everyday lalo na kapag nakikita ko tong blog kong 'to. Ang nakasulat - maging biik siguro ang pusa bago mangyari yan! charaught lang! hahaha 

Hello GRAY and white theme! Samahan mo ako sa mga darating na taon! Don’t be pampam! Makiuso ka lang muna! Temporary pa siguro ang mukhang yan kasi naghahanap pa ako ng butterfly na babagay sa tele-ma-gray at white kong kaarte-artehan header. hahaha OC ako at hindi ako mapalagay even until this moment! haha haiizz.. makaspleeeett nga sandaleh! woott! 

May kadramahan pa akong version 2.0 - the best of me! echuws! Kebs! Sabagay, explain ko lang kahit hindi mo na kailangan ng ekplenasyon! haha YES! it's VERSION TWO point OH na dahil i can say that i am better now, i am stronger than i was yesterday, i managed my life positively & finally naabot ko na ang pangarap ko - at nagsisimula ulit ako ng panibagong ipopokpok sa utak ko! hahaha 

The best of me kasi i've seen my worst already! This is now the moment i can say, ito na ang best ko! This is it, I am ready! ! After all, life is too short to waste it! So let's grab & have that drink (tubig lang diet ako! hahaha) 

Huling huli na ito - say HI also to my new post template (a.k.a signature)! 

Totoo na ito!

So yes! i made a new header! This means that the day has finally come (charaught!) na papalitan ko na ang header ko at totoo na ito, magcchange ako ng background na! Kakayanin ko tong gawin ito in the next 3 hours (malakas ang net for now haha) sana nga!!! wwoooott!!! patambling tambling!! giling giling!!! spliittttinngg!! hahaha 

Yccos "Meow" visits "Telelalahbells"

I need to debrief myself immediately. Chos!!! Haha

The 100k painting -
mas malaki pa kai
teacher kat lol

One of the PBO’s (Pinoy Bloggers Outreach) attractive (and active) member especially by means of smallness & prettiness ( LOL ) came to Cagayan de Oro City unexpectedly. All the way from Quezon City transferred to Taguig City, Metro Manila accordingly (drum roll please), 2_ (I intentionally not to put a number next to 2! Haha), 5’ FLAT? (wooottt! Alam na!) & proud to be a bekeey! Presenting Ms. Kat a.k.a “meow” slash “yccos” (I’m seryos, pilit na pilit akong maging seryos! Chos! Hahaha)

I’m very happy indeed! Yeyy!! In such short notice & time, we still manage to make our weekend a worth to remember. That is not also possible without the help of my friends – Peps (wag ng alamin ang totoong pangalan ng taong ito dahil babalik tayo sa panahon ng spanyol haha) , Imee “Imyang” (dahil mas matanda pa sa akin ito kumilos, madalas may dalang panghilod ito kahit san magpunta) and Juan in tagalog John in English (pinaghandaan niya ang BANAT statement na yan para kay “Kat” dahil sa Filipino subject lang nagsasalita ng tagalog mga tao dito samin! so OA lang ang sinabi ko! Hahaha) siniraan ko talaga mga kaibigan ko eh! Nyahahahaha soreh! Soreh!

Syempre selfie - nakiuso

Our day started with sumakay kami ng “motorela” (only in cdo yan! Rooowww!!) & had a pambansang breakfast at “jabebey!” hahaha ohh yes! Of course we then visited first the Cagayan de Oro City Cathedral to pray & went to Xavier University after – hindi kami nakapasok kasi nakapekpek shorts si “kat” hahahaha akalain mo yon?! Conservative masyado kami dito eh!! Charot lang! hahaha something came up may konting emergency so pumunta kami sa lugar nila peps then went straight after to Provincial Capitol where I used to work for 7 years & may malaking sculpture kung saan masayang tingnan si kat na pilit niya itong yakapin ng buo! (hahaha) dahil sa sobrang init – sa isang mall pa din ending namin at we had our coffee sa starbucks. (mainit na kape inorder namin, parang hindi din kami nakaligtas sa init ng panahon! Haha). Our lunch was at Bucher’s Best (dito may 14 php pa na bbq).

Earthquake

I love this pic! EcoVillage!

Just as exactly 1 pm we decided to go to Capitol University Museum (kung san andon ang history ng Cdo), touristang tourista lang kami eh kasi first time ko rin pumunta don ano! (bahahaha) sa next destination namin of course not just once but ohh yes! 2^nd time kong pumunta don! (feeling proud hahaha) 15 mins away from the City, sumakay kami ng jeep at “habal-habal” papuntang “ECO VILLAGE” nakuh! Lakas maka-earthquake ang lugar na ito! Masarap kasi magjumpshot dito! Haha it’s all pure nature! Sarap! Masarap yong pababa pero nong pabalik na, yong butas ng ilong ko kasing laki ng kamao ni pacman na! one of the best thing happened nong pauwi na kami – hinamon nila akong mag limbo rock nong palabas na kami (naka-inclined na ito) gustohin ko man pero feeling ko maging bola ako na pagulong-gulong pag nagkamali ako ohhh dibah! Nasa isip ko pa lang, may nangyari na kay “Juan in English John” tumambling lang naman siya oh see kumusta naman kung ako yon! Susmaryusep!! Maawa ako sa daan! Hahahaha after “Eco Village” went straight to “limketkai mall” (kapag cdo – LKK Mall ang trademark! Only in cdo lang yan talaga) & back to Imee’s “Imyang’s” dorm to get kat’s bag & stayed Jollibee nearby for a while at pumunta na kami straight sa 2^nd home ko para don magstay overnight – sa bahay nila peps. Hahaha

Boystown Outreach

Saturday night we prepared the hygiene kits for the outreach kinabukasan. Thanks to PEPS sa lahat dahil he allowed us to be part of his Org for a day! (I can’t thank u enough really, wwooott!) the following day pumunta kami sa “Boystown” ng Cdo located away from the city, mga 1 hour din yong binyahe namin with all the rough road along & free natural powder! Oh diba bongga! Hahaha I am very happy dahil may malaking part si Kat during our outreach dahil we let her interact with the kids as well as nagconduct din siya ng activity sa mga bata. Fulfilling! kaso bitin lang! Right after our outreach, dahil maaga natapos I called a friend who is just nearby para kumain ng French fries at beefsteak! Hahaha she’s a friend for almost 15 years din kaya at home na rin ako sa bahay nila! Chos! Ang layo din naman ng nilakad namin ano (super init pa!), tunaw na tunaw yong taba ko don! Effortless!

After Outreach -
Yccos with the Big Four

Exactly 12 noon kami umalis sa bahay ng friend ko and dumating kami downtown mga 1 na siguro yon, kumain ng sundae all from Mcdonalds dahil SUNdaey! Haha just waited for Pep’s sister for a while naiwan yong tablet ni kat sa bahay nila Peps. Parang ayokong tapusin tong entry nato kasi alam ng uwian na eh! Hahaha charowt! Hinatid namin si Kat sa LKK Mall kung saan don siya sasakay ng Van going to the airport, that’s around 2:30 na siguro, had few group pictures and ayon na ba-bye na talaga! Haaaiiizzz! Lol There’s no goodbye but see you again soon!! That is!!! Yeey!!

GRACE - Our fries & beef steak

For a day & a half na kasama ko si Teacher Kat “yccos” ito lang masabi ko – may katapat ako!!!! Hahaha she’s bubbly & a positive thinker! What I admired the most yong pagiging flexible niya (knowing I also have my friends with me during her visit) AT ito pa – ang talino ha in fairness hindi ko carry yong history ng pinas, wala nga akong matanong don eh! (tulog ako nong kinuha ko ang subject na yan! Hahaha) I hate being so big sa mga pictures namin kasi ang liit niya!! Literal! Hahahahaha the best I could describe KAT - “NO PRETENTIONS!!!” what you see, what you’ve read is what you get!!! Yes!! It is!!

MecMec - Pep's Home

It was a worth weekend!!! Thank you teacher kat for the visit & next time ulet!! Wooott!!! I can’t thank enough also to Pep’s Family – Tita slash Mama Merelyn & ang pangarap kong katawan sa hilaw kong kapatid na si MecMec, na always ready and on the GO!!! Of course si Juan in English it’s JOHN – official icebreaker!!! Imee slash Imyang as well as our official photographer all throughout!!! Hahaha I LOVE YOU Guys!! (wid feelings, CAPSLOCK para intense!! Hahaha)

Today... i declare.

as of today, i declare that this blog is under construction!!! lol 

-working on some changes...woooot...weeet...
-buwis buhay editing mode! let's make this blog white! rrootts!
-from black to white, im going to extract all the fats in me just to make a new banner! salty fluid is coming up!! haha 

Putok putok bawat taon

Just like I said in my previous entry, I would like to share pano ako nag-acrobat at mala break down sa buhay ko bago ako pumasok sa mundo ng social service. Charottts lang! may history talaga? Cheess! Hahaha

Nong unang sabak ko sa college, I took up Architecture and waalleey hindi ako nag-apprenticeship ng 2 years (naabotan ako ng bagong law at that time na magtake ng 2 years bago magtake ng board exam, pakershets! Hahaha) HINDI ko na kaya kasi nastress at I was totally lost. (yooowwwn oh! Haha charms! Hahaha)

2006 – napasok ako sa isang government agency, 7 years din naman ako

2011 – ng April nitong taon, I lost my mother, she died of complication

2011 – ng June naman nito, I decided to enrol Social Work para sundan ang yapak ng nanay ko. ARAL TRABAHO ang drama ko dito! hahaha

2013 – I had my practicum sa rehabilitation center for rape survivors & I was also a community organizer in one municipality in our province

2014 – ng march nito natapos ko na

2014 – by april naman, shonga shonga nako, nagboard review kami, hirap walang facebook, walang blog, wala lahat hahaha

2014 – ng may naman, juice colored, I made a personal review schedule and binigay ko ang katawan ko, kaluluwa, isip at puso ko at itong kapatid ko sasabihan lang akong >>> “papasa kaba? Nagrereview kaba?” (dahil nahuhuli niya akong nanunuod ng juan for all, all for one! Hahaha)

WOW ha sa isip ko! Wala ng natira sakin, walang wala na talaga, nasusuka na ako sa 10 hours a day na sched ko! Hahahaha paakkeeng tapes!!!

Ito na, ito na, sayaw sa left, sayaw sa right, tumbling two times at spleeetttt sabay utot sa bibig! Hahahaha

2014 – ng JUNE 29 & 30 ayan na board exam na namin!

2 days after, I got the result, sssssooooosss!!

Halos lahat ng santo, nakilala na namin, kung san-saan kami napupunta, may aakyat kami ng medyo slight na bundok, sasakay ng habal-habal, tatawid ng 9 ilog para mapuntahan ang mga secret helper natin sa buhay.

After the first day ng board exam, I saw a moth malapit sa kitchen, that’s where I said to myself na, papasa ako! yon ang sign!

YES! It is, after 2 days, finally nakita ko na rin yong name ko and now I can officially practice social work and defend disadvantages people around us.

Sa ngayon, nagpapahinga ako (kasi ala pa akong trabaho! Hahaha) but I am waiting sa appointment ko nalang sa isang national agency. Pero if ako ang tatanongin, gusto ko pa rin magtrabaho sa UNICEF. In God’s time and will. 

Haayysss, gusto ko ng pasokin ang mundo ng Law. hahaha 

Makikigulo sa SONA

Una sa lahat gusto kong makigulo sa SONA ni Pnoy! Chos! Hahaha (sway to the left and to the right sabay kaway kaway talon at biglaanngg splleetts)

Lahat ng tao may pagkukulang, walang perpekto, siguro naman sa lahat ng taong “nakakaintindi” ginawa naman ni Pnoy ang best niya para sa Pilipinas. Bawat presidente natin sa Pilipinas, isa lang masabi ko PAKSHET sa lahat ng raliyista na yan na wala na sa lugar, lahat may comment, lahat may reklamo, lahat mali ang nakikita nila sa presidente, PWES! One this then there is, be the president of the Philippines! Parang sila nalang lagi tama! Eh di magpresidente kayo yon lang yon! hahahaha

Sa trabaho ko sa field noon at ngayon, isa lang ang realization ko, yes oo aaminin ko yang madaming mali sa gobyerno, totoo may mga corrupt sa gobyerno talaga lalo na kapag nasa position ka pero hindi nagpapabaya ang gobyerno sa mga programa para sa mga mahihirap! Totoo yan. Ang mahirap?! Yong mga mahihirap sinisisi ang president dahil sa kahirapan, naman! Ito ang katotohanan diyan, MENTALIDAD!!! Oo MENTALITY ng mga taong yan! Nasa isip nila na mahirap sila kaya hanggang don nalang sila. HINDI! HINDI! Hahaha kasi lahat may paraan kapag gusto, lahat may magagawa kapag determinado!

Hindi ko naman masabi na maka-Pnoy ako, pero ang gulo gulo ng maynila sa mga rally na yan, sunog dito, sunog doon, hindi kayo yayaman dyan! hahaha yon lang talaga! hindi! hahaha chos! 

Wwwwoooootttt.. paaakk!! Hahaha

Anyways, siguro ito na ang right time para makabalik nako sa mundo ng pagbblog, charots! Oo kasi naitawid ko na ang pangarap ko. ito na ang simula sa pagbuo ng bagong mga pangarap. Naman! Achos lang! hahahaha di nga, above all, sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa diyos sa lahat-lahat na nangyari sa buhay ko for the past 3 years. Naabot ko na, I got my license finally! Yoohoo!! I am now already a REGISTERED SOCIAL WORKER! YES! Hahaha  Ito ang masabi kong God made it all happen the least I expect it, it was indeed orchestrated.

Sa next post ko na ikukwento about pano ko narating ang lahat ng ito sa buhay ko. charoowwss! Hahaha

Wala lang, nakikigulo lang naman ako talaga sa SONA, sumingit lang bigla ang personal na buhay! hahaha

Hayyymisshyoo all!!

One more bridge to cross...

Hindi dahil nag-update ako, wala akong ginagawa. Gusto ko mang mag-ingay pero ubos ang energy ko! Hindi dahil kulang ako sa kain pero pagod lang ako. echos lang! May utang pa ako kay mommy B. hahaha hindi ko nasubmit yong entry about sa church dito sa amin. Makakabawi din ako hindi ko lang masabi kung balang araw ba! Haha chos! Anyway, so much to that, may tataposin lang ako sa buhay ko ngayon.

Ang taba ko na! (kelan ba ako pumayat anoh?! Hahaha)

I am on a journey sa mga panahon ngayon. Parang nasa gitna na ng throat ko yong tension, pressure, excitement kahit natata-e na ako, hindi lumalabas agad-agad. Nagpapapilit pa. tokwa!!

Law of attraction! Law of attraction is what I am holding on to now! like I said sa twitter ko, “kaya ko pa! kaya pa” I am almost there. I am going to finish the race! I think this is really about winning! Goal winning I must say!

Nakaya kong hindi nag-fb ng more than a month, kakayanin ko pa for another month! Getting something in life, we need to give our sacrifices! That’s the challenge there! Life is indeed beautiful when we know that there are people na naghihintay sa atin. To emphasize, our family and long lost friends.  I also consider yong mga blogger friends ko of course. A lot of plans made na kailangan munang maghintay, that is also a sacrifice I did.

One more bridge to cross and I will be there.

I am going to fulfil a promise to someone, I am giving a gift to myself too. After all these years, I have come to this point saying na “in the right place and time” everything is in order!!!

To the person I am giving this gift, may you bless me and grant the desire of my heart. It is you who said that “SOULS are our greatest secret helper in life” and I am claiming it now for I believe you were with me all the way in re-constructing my life. I almost there, carry me on! I can do this!! I will make it!!! 

*stress management ko talaga tong pag-bblog!! lol :) nag-level up na, hindi na pagkain ang takbohan ko! hahaha 

You, just made a difference!

All of a sudden, I remembered I still have this, my blog! Woooootttt.. the last time I had an update was January 11, 2014, kumusta  naman?!! (spleeett! Haha)

For 3 months, oh my God! Rroooowwwttss!!!

A lot of things happened and I guess some of you knew it through my facebook account. To the left, to the right, forward, backward ang requirements ko for my final year. Really. I don’t want to elaborate that because I don’t want to bore you at all. Charr!!!

So much to that, I just wanted to say thank you to PBO members and especially Mommy joy. You guys will always be part of my success in life. I am glad that along my journey, I have met you all. My special mention to my very very best buddy online blogger, si feyel! Yes si feyel! Those times that nobody knows how down I was during the compilation of requirements that something came up, he was there to brighten up my day, to lighten up the heavy heart and never get tired of listening to my stupid woes. (at ang very best goal now din is we will have a picture of us!! to justify why we are best buds online!! charroottss!! hahahaha) I am tough, I am strong but even how strong I am, minsan nagbbreakdown ako, simply because I am just a human too.  Yes hindi ako hayop, tao ako! Lol echus!

On serious note, I made you all as my inspiration to aspire more in life, to believe that dreams come true one day, to this, I know I can extend more of my time and life to those who are in need. Honestly, I just don’t want to do that, what I really want is to make a big unique difference to everybody.  Something that I can be their inspiration in getting their dreams, to believe as well that dreams are not just dreams, they are made to happen.  Thank you once again for the small and big things, those simple laughs, thoughts and little hi’s and hello’s, you are making a difference in my life. Thank you guys.

I got it! I made it! One chapter ends and another is ready to open! Hello Social Work Board Review!

Above all, Thank you God for leading me to my purpose in life. Becoming an architect is not my destination; indeed becoming a Registered Social Worker is my call. 

sa E.R ang totoong drama ng buhay

Dahil malamig ang panahon, ayokong magpainit ng post hahaha

I just wanted to say something bago ako mag-acrobat sa blog kong ito and even sa buhay ko!

After 2 weeks’ vacation, (December 21, 2013 to January 5, 2014) yong vacation na finally nasabi kong, I spent it to myself, my family and GOD! Yes, I brought back my life to him. I have my faith of course, I believe in him, I really do but those were the times I came to realize that life is too short to waste in pity things. I am not a person who is prayerful, goes to church every Sunday but with that 2 weeks’ vacation, I am happy with the change!

This is one of the few conversations I had with my sister after she had her night duty. Having a coffee in the morning and talk random things ay isa sa pinaka magandang moment masabi kong I have time with my family, finally! (been feeling so busy kasi ang buhay ko for the past years! Charot lang yon! hahaha)

So much for that, ito kasi ang sabi niya na nakapagisip ako ng bongga talaga! “kapag namatay ang tao, kahit piso wala kang madadala…” my sister was assigned in the emergency room sa isang tertiary hospital dito sa amin. I just can’t believe sinasabi niya sa amin na siya yong nagpipikit ng mata nong patiente na namamatay sa E.R kapag ito ay nakadilat, dagdagan pa yong magtatanggal ng IV’s sa katawan nong pasyente. And doon ako mas natinag when she told us na kahit patay na yong tao, she make it sure na maayos yong pagtanngal ng mga IV’s at kahit patay na she still take care of it like buhay pa so the immediate family or relatives would feel na inasikaso naman yong pasyente kahit public hospital man.

That conversation made me realize a lot of things in life. I looked back and ponder what have I done in the past years of my life, tama rin ba kaya yong mga nagawa ko nong nasa work pa ako, may natulongan ba ako talaga or baka nasaktan ko lang yong iba. I learned to be humble enough now and mas naging mahaba ang patience ko this time dahil kailangan kong hindi na patulan ang mga taong makitid ang utak na walang ginawa kundi pagusapan ang ibang tao to the point na lulunorin mo na yong tao at tatanggalan ng ulo. NOW, I just love praying over them and show my success along.

Mas narealize ko now na ang dami kong sinayang na oras, pero I still have hope na may mga about 30 years pa ako kung hindi ako mahihigh blood sa sobrang pigil sa galit minsan! Hahaha kaya I am proud and happy I turn myself back to God, as in having a relationship with him made me feel that I can do all things that are impossible because with him, alam natin everything is possible!

oh  yes, glad at nakasama pala din ako sa Black Nazarene na prosisyon, i felt so loved. Really. it was also my first time to join. 

Take note, it doesn’t mean na feeling banal ako sa post kong ‘to eh hindi na ako magiingay sa mga bahay niyo. This is just the spiritual side of me lang naman, meron pang social, emotional, physical aspect pa naman! Hahahaha

Sa next post ulit. Totoo na ito for this year! Hahaha

Birthday arousal

I MISS THIS!!!!

ang mababasa niyo ay rated s.p.g striktong patnubay at gabay ng magulang ang kailangan. maaring may maseselang tema, lenggwahe, karanasan, karahasan, o sekswal. hahaha

Nabubuhay ang aking mga alindog!! (napaisip pa rin ako kung meron ba ako nyan! Hahaha)

Woooooppp!!! Woooppsss!!! Kerrriii!! Keerrriii! My booobbss!! Keriboobs!! biglang talon, pagkalapak sa putik, split all the way agad-agad, biglang tayo at dampot ng pagkain! (kapagod kaya noh! Hahaha)

My moment…

It’s been 3 months since my last post. Hahaha i was very busy indeed doing nothing only that eating is an exemption to this matter! Rooow! Hahaha oh well, well! hindi lang sa kakakain ang pinagkakaabalahan ko alam niyo namang busy ako sa career ko rin! Feeling ko lang this year mas maging busy ako! (feeling lang yan, walang assurance pa yan! Hahaha)

On a serious note, hopefully matatapos na ako this march and will have my 2 months review and by June, yon na! board exam na! (hhmmm…) so much for that, busy din ako sa long term plan ko after graduation, will tell it soon kapag mahahawakan ko na ang upo, I mean maging totoo na ang UPOrtunety! TOOOTTTooooRRROOOOTTTTooooTTT!!! (trumpong trumpo)

Ayoko na ng moment, naantok ako! Hahaha charing! 

Woooppss!! Keerriii keerrriii my boobss!!! Woooott!!! Hahahaha

Siguro hindi pa alam ng lahat kung bakit bigla akong nabuhay, bigla akong gumawa ng entry! Matagal ko ng plano talaga I am just looking for the perfect and right time kaso hindi na ata nakapagantay simula nong pinukaw ang aking alindog (iniisip ko pa rin until now if meron ba ako nyan hahaha) ng isang hari na itatago ko sa pangalang “archie” OO! Siyang siya nga from a far far away land! SUPER asim i mean tamis ng HARI dahil gumawa siya ng isang laglagan entry talaga para sakin! hahaha at lalong nagkaron ako ng awaken emotions (in other words – arousal of feelings daw hahahaha) nong may picture greeting ako galing sa one and only pusa ko na matagal nagtatago na kala ng lahat ay isang cat drawing lang to! (automatic tadyak sa buntot ng pusa kapag ito ay magrereact! Hahah) Thank you sa inyong dalawa, ang sweat sweet ninyo pati ako pinagpapawisan sa inyo! i lab da two op U!

Thank you also sa isang special na kaibigan na si jonDmur, ang lover ng blogsphere dahil sa hilig nito magsulat ng romance books hahaha (ito ibebenta ko na sa inyo! chos! hahaha) special kasi hindi niya nilagay ang pic greeting kasi sa timeline ko at private talaga. Hihihi at nakaka-arouse i mean nakaka bring up din ng excitement naman tong si josh na idol ko sa pagV-vlog nong sinabi niyang “iblow na yan!” sabayan pa ng gwapitong paokun sa blogsphere na “I blow na nga yan!” ibang iba ang aking pakiramdam! Parang pag na-iblow eh hindi ko alam kung may sasabog ba or mamatay! Hindi ko talaga alam! Pero ang nasa isip ko nito, ang hari pa rin! (I feel so crazy!! Landi2x pag may time) hahahaha

Mas nagsstimulate ito sexually I mean emotionally pala ang pagbabalik ko sa blogsphere nong nakita ko ang mga unexpected birthday greetings from the PBOers, its been a year na nga since nong nagsimulang mabuo ang groupo. I appreciate sa lahat ng bumati, you made me so special and gay! (OMG! Hahaha) I so love that! promise! I truly found a home in you all guys! Thank you! and Thank you for the friendship!!!

Hindi ako mapakali, hindi dahil Makati yong pwet ko or yong silicon ko eh lumalabas na sa bra ko! hindi ganon! At hindi yon! hahahaha charing! Ang dami kong gustong sabihin! Alam ni feyel yan, alam ng mga PBOers din yan, sa daldal ko ba naman kahit ako hindi ako kontento sa pagbblog lang! hindi talaga! I hate this! Char lang, arte-arte lang para may masabi! Hahaha

OH YES! I do plan of making once again a vlog, sabi nga ni haring archie, makapal ang mukha ko! yes! Sa mga bago sa blogsphere! Kayo na ang mahiya sakin dahil kung may mas makapal pa sa rubber pwes yon na ang mukha ko! Walang kokontra! Hahahaha (assuming lang!) hindi ko nga alam anong sumapi sakin sa araw na yon at totoo hindi ako humarap sa camera hanggat hindi ako nag-ahit ng kilay! Bwahahahaha

Oh well naman noh in fairness!!! Gustohin ko man magVlog ngayon, hindi ako ready! Wag niyo akong pilitin! Please! Hahaha promise hindi ako ready! Dahil hindi pa ako nakapunta ng david salon para magpagupit, ahit ng kilay at bigote, isali mo na ang buhok sa kili-kili! Ang pechay?! Kasama?! Wag na! sa brazil ko na gagawin yon! Brazilian style! (hindi ko maimagine sarili ko! bwahahahaha) anyways, totoo! This time kailangan ko ng magmake up tulad ng nakikita niyong profile pic ko sa facebook at blogspot! Kasi kung hindi ko gagawin yon hindi ako yon! hahaha kailangan panindigan ang gandang di inakala! hahahaha

Now tell me, ang gastos diba?! Kalokah! Kailangan kong gumastos ng libo-libo para iharap ko ang sarili ko sa hari! Dahil kung hindi ko gagawin yon, hindi ako makaka-ani ng upo, baka puro sili at okra lang makukuha ko, mas masaklap kapag ampalayang kulobot! Hay naman! Walang pag-asa! Walang isasarap sa bitter na bitter na ampalaya! Alam mo yon!? its driving me so crazy! Uggh!! (feeling maarte lang ako! Hahahaha)

ITO SERYOS TALAGA…

Salamat sa lahat ng bumati, salamat dahil kala ko nakalimutan na ninyo ako dahil sobra ang pananahimik ko, I feel so special dahil kahit tagal naging sabaw ang utak ko sa pagbablog, hindi niyo ako nakalimutan especially to ate “balut ng manila” (na hanggang ngayon hindi ako makaget over sa edad niya kasi feeling ko mas matanda pa ako sa kanya! ang bata niyang tingnan kaya! Hahaha) I feel so blessed to have you guys around! For this year, let’s aim to be a blessing to other people!!!

FEELING KO LANG, may multiple personality disorder ako, bigla bigla ang pag-sshift ko ng thoughts! hahahaha sige rix sagotin mo ako dito! hahaha