One more bridge to cross...

Hindi dahil nag-update ako, wala akong ginagawa. Gusto ko mang mag-ingay pero ubos ang energy ko! Hindi dahil kulang ako sa kain pero pagod lang ako. echos lang! May utang pa ako kay mommy B. hahaha hindi ko nasubmit yong entry about sa church dito sa amin. Makakabawi din ako hindi ko lang masabi kung balang araw ba! Haha chos! Anyway, so much to that, may tataposin lang ako sa buhay ko ngayon.

Ang taba ko na! (kelan ba ako pumayat anoh?! Hahaha)

I am on a journey sa mga panahon ngayon. Parang nasa gitna na ng throat ko yong tension, pressure, excitement kahit natata-e na ako, hindi lumalabas agad-agad. Nagpapapilit pa. tokwa!!

Law of attraction! Law of attraction is what I am holding on to now! like I said sa twitter ko, “kaya ko pa! kaya pa” I am almost there. I am going to finish the race! I think this is really about winning! Goal winning I must say!

Nakaya kong hindi nag-fb ng more than a month, kakayanin ko pa for another month! Getting something in life, we need to give our sacrifices! That’s the challenge there! Life is indeed beautiful when we know that there are people na naghihintay sa atin. To emphasize, our family and long lost friends.  I also consider yong mga blogger friends ko of course. A lot of plans made na kailangan munang maghintay, that is also a sacrifice I did.

One more bridge to cross and I will be there.

I am going to fulfil a promise to someone, I am giving a gift to myself too. After all these years, I have come to this point saying na “in the right place and time” everything is in order!!!

To the person I am giving this gift, may you bless me and grant the desire of my heart. It is you who said that “SOULS are our greatest secret helper in life” and I am claiming it now for I believe you were with me all the way in re-constructing my life. I almost there, carry me on! I can do this!! I will make it!!! 

*stress management ko talaga tong pag-bblog!! lol :) nag-level up na, hindi na pagkain ang takbohan ko! hahaha 

Tele-tahimik-muna

Ayoko muna mag-ingay, walang intro, walang drums, kampana at ano pang anek-anek.

Natatawa rin ako kapag iniisip kong mag-eemote ako, ganyan hahaha but no, no, I hope it’s a big no. lol

It’s in my thoughts now I want “telelalahbells” will remain as a happy person, may happy thoughts and will definitely just laugh with problems and I think that’s what I am doing now kahit sobrang bigat na ng kuyukot ko esteh yong puso ko charing lang hahaha

Kayo, kayo lang eh! Hihihi pero honestly, since I came back sa mundo ng blogging, I started to open my thoughts, lahat na ata kulang nalang maghubad ako pero wag na masara pa tong blogspot dahil sakin. 

Hahaha roootts. And u became all my inspiration kaya tuloy ang ingay-ingay mode ko. char!

Una, I just want to say thank you to all sa walang sawang pagbisita sa blog ko, may sense man o wala ang post ko you never failed to drop and left your footprints, you made a difference sa life ko and alam mo yan. Salamat kaibigan, mga sis, ateh, koyah at mga ka-animals.

It has been months since dito ko nilagay lahat ng rants ko sa buhay and I am grateful that dahil sa blogging at sa inyo, I come to discover a lot of things sa buhay ko, nakaya kong i-separate ang sarili ko, (dual personality ang peg? Hahaha) kung trying hard to be formal kami kasi nga tinitingnan ng maraming tao ang profession namin sa realidad na parang bawal magkamali, dapat lahat ng bagay ay tama, iniiwasang magkamali dahil panget sa mata ng ibang tao, but dito sa mundo ng blogsphere, abah super split na split ang personality ko dito hahaha wala yon, hindi kasama yon dahil mas gugustohin ko yong simpleng ako lang talaga, free to express my thoughts without any judgment, without any doubts and we are all free to share what’s in our mind (facebook lang ba may alam? Lol)  lahat equal, yon ang importante sakin, walang mayaman, walang mahirap lahat ay pantay tayo dito sa mundo ng blogsphere.

Now I am saying that I already have a life here.. chars!! Haha

Sa totoo lang, gutom lang ako now hahaha jowk. There’s just this feeling lang na I once felt this, nakakainis, nakakalito at nagugulohan (charoots) pero hindi ako na-tatae ha. Promise. Hahaha

I am trying now  na maging seryos na. hahaha syet.

Natuwa lang me, a year after I learned to listen again those “love songs” bwahahahahaha natatawa ako pero totoo nga, bakit ba wag ng makialam blog ko to hahaha jowk naiiba na rin ang mood ko, hihihi ohhh well thanked God for the life and love I knew it once na naging matatag ako lalo at nagbigay ng daan para maintindihan ko rin ang ibang tao who have been an alipin ng pag-ibig. Charooks!!

But anyways, tumae lang ako dito sa blog ko este naglabas ng hindi naman sama ng loob but saloobin lang ata. I just want to take this out, yong happiness na hindi mo alam where galing at ano ang pinaghuhugotan char char many char hahaha basta yon na yon talaga, be it, whatever is in your mind, basta yon na talaga! Hahaha

[insert puso na may butas]

P.S.

Like I said, I’m glad and happy na naabot mo yan. You got it. Finally, the license, the firm and the life, it is really for you. Basta i am just happy for you, hanggang doon lang siguro.  Your dreams became your reality now, congratulations!  I can't be part of that, anymore. Until then, architect. =)

Reality 11: Look inside

A change of thoughts now?

Maybe… I don’t know.

After my mom and grandma appeared in my dream the other night, I come to wonder what was that for, so I ponder a lot the whole day yesterday kaya naisipan kong panoorin ito kagabi.

Last night I happened to watch FINALLY this “the encounter” movie. (if it’s not with our RS subject in school, I wouldn’t know it after all. Requirement din naming panoorin ‘to para gawan ng reaction paper but I got more than that)

I just would like to share it, maybe through this movie may mabago din ang pananaw, thoughts nila or makapagreflect din.

This is biblical ika nga, it will touch the spiritual aspect sa life natin, alam naman ng lahat na I am not a church person but I really believed in God, his divine intervention, no doubt.

Ito lang siguro ulit ang bumalik sa isip ko na lagi kong tinatanong sa kanya na…

“where do you really want me to go?”

After I watched the movie, oo I asked him again pero iba na ang kasunod its “please guide me wherever you want me to go…”

Iba lang ang naging mood ko last night, after nanood, natulog at bagsak talaga ang katawan ko, I wasn’t able to wake up nga ng maaga to go to the gym, parang may bigat lang akong naramdaman sa puso ko kagabi.

I was really touched doon sa part na sinabihan ni God yong mga tao isa-isa ng “I LOVE YOU” wala lang ramdam na ramdam ko lang kasi from the start of his conversation to them, ang lalim na kasi lahat. naisip ko nga habang nanonood ako, totoo nga, totoo siya like nasa harap ko lang.

Kung nakita mo na ang movie na ito? Saan sa lima na character na masabi mong marelate mo ang iyong sarili? I am referring sa attitude na pinapakita niya towards kay God. Kasi ako, siguro yong babaeng in love sa kanyang boyfriend, ang ugali kasi niya was yong pinipilit niya ang bagay na tingin niya tama pero sa mata at desire ni God ay hindi. It happened din kasi minsan yan sa buhay ko until finally natanggap ko na may mga bagay na hindi talaga para sa atin. Kaya ito ako ngayon, shifting my dreams.

Sana maging inspired kayo sa movie na ito, subukan niyo lang tingnan, maybe it will moved you in the end. I am not asking na maniwala kayo sa mga pinagsasabi ko kasi kahit ako alam naman ng lahat na wala sa personality ko ang mga pinagsasabi ko dito pero isa lang ang sasabihin ko, matapang man akong tingnan pero pusong mamon talaga ako. =p wala sa looks ang peg talaga!! Hehehe

Gandang gabi sa lahat.

Naging busy lang talaga ako, pasensya na. makakagala din ako sa inyong mga bahay.

Dahil LOVE MONTH I will share this quote:

LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING…

and please don't forget to share your heart and love to everyone... hindi lang pasko ang kailangan para magshare hehehe i am inviting you po to support the "PBO - BAZAAR FOR A CAUSE" Thanks...

God will provide you more when you share your blessings. =)