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My 4^th year in Christmas blogging although I have missed a lot doing the bloggers stuff. You know the picture greetings, exchange of comments because hey it’s vacation, right?! Just as when you received your greeting from your fellow bloggers, you’re too excited to create a blog post entry saying your way of “thank you’s!” OH! I totally missed that! Where are you all anyway!? Hahaha assuming naman ako eh ano? Kakabalik ko nga lang eh. Chos!

I do understand the “sabaw” moments, tinatamad, busy and simpleng pagod lang magblog. No excuses, nangyari na sa akin lahat ang yan but I am still trying so hard now to be consistent sa pagbablog, (huh!) we’ll see it through.

There are new faces in blogging, even those new members sa PBO, ang dami! I can’t catch up anymore. I’m sorry. Hihihi Anyareh?! Achus! Hihihi Sana ang PBO matuloy ang sinimulan, sayang kasi eh, andyan na yan, konting kembot nalang oh! Wooott. I never heard any activity kasi or sadyang nganga lang ako dahil hindi ko nakita ang update ng PBO hahaha pasensya! Pigilan niyo ako muna for a while? Ples?! Hahaha honestly, ang dami ko ng hindi kilala sa PBO, I may not be one of the founders neither the first batch of members but I’ve seen PBO from the start, it really grew and OH MY! Geed!! Ang laki ng potential! My future! Wwwooott! I’m very sure naman ang mga bagong batch of members now sa PBO, also have the heart to extend their passion beyond blogging or writing. I welcome you all, hindi ko man kayo kilala for now, pasensya, I’ll give enough time to wander around. Hahaha  I just missed a lot of events sa PBO and half ng buhay ko, I regret that! Hahahaha bakit ba kasi ang layo ko sa Luzon!! Hahaha kaloka naman kasi!

I am not yet ready to close my 2014, eh! Kasi I’m still thinking! Hahaha I’m thinking ano bang nabigay ni 2014 sa akin. Hehehe as far as I could remember, it’s all worth it naman, even if sa simula ng taong 2014, saktong January, hindi ganon kaganda pero hindi naman naubos ni 2014 ang bad na nangyari, mas madami pa rin ang good things na nangyari, syempre! Wwoot! Kailangan! Dapat positive tayo no matter what! Hahaha kahit nadapa ka man siguro, isipin mo nalang na yes! Nadapa ako, at may dahilan yan at hindi dahil sa katangahan lang yon! Hahaha

Oh again! I am hitting you sa blog na ito, bumalik na kayo! Utang na loob naman! Ang tahimik sa blogsphere! Hahaha 

Hindi ba kayo gagawa ng bago nito? hahaha  mas masaya na ngayon kasi ang dami na natin pala hahaha buhis buhay ang paghahanap ko sa picture na ito! hahaha 

This is think was 2012 if im not mistaken. wwwooottt.
 payat pa ako kasi! charot! hahahaha

Version Two point O-hh ( V2.0 ) na si Telelalahbells

So it is! Yes! I’m finally & officially back!! (kailangan may fireworks – wwoossh!! Wwoott!! Hahaha)

Umandar ang pagka-OC ko sa mga bagay-bagay! Yeah! Yeah! I am! I am up for 2 days editing sa blog ko! I just couldn’t stop doing it hanggang I’ll get not just a result but at least better man lang! chos lang! hihihihi More than ten times na attempt to change my header, isang araw na nakababad sa photoshop last weekend! Pumapayat na nga ako ng slight dahil nakakalimutan ko ng kumain! (mga 1 cm lang konting konti – boom! Sayaw sayaw! Haha)

So goodbye this header! Thank you sa pagiging yellow sa aking buhay for the last 2 years na siguro! Wwoott!! I'm so seryos with this header! haha but i mean it kung ano man ang nakalagay dito! The butterfly here - paborito kasi ng "mommy" ko yan, everytime may nakita siyang ganyan sa bahay noon she never failed to tell us "its a soul." Since she's not here anymore with us na rin, yan ang nagpaparemind sa akin everyday lalo na kapag nakikita ko tong blog kong 'to. Ang nakasulat - maging biik siguro ang pusa bago mangyari yan! charaught lang! hahaha 

Hello GRAY and white theme! Samahan mo ako sa mga darating na taon! Don’t be pampam! Makiuso ka lang muna! Temporary pa siguro ang mukhang yan kasi naghahanap pa ako ng butterfly na babagay sa tele-ma-gray at white kong kaarte-artehan header. hahaha OC ako at hindi ako mapalagay even until this moment! haha haiizz.. makaspleeeett nga sandaleh! woott! 

May kadramahan pa akong version 2.0 - the best of me! echuws! Kebs! Sabagay, explain ko lang kahit hindi mo na kailangan ng ekplenasyon! haha YES! it's VERSION TWO point OH na dahil i can say that i am better now, i am stronger than i was yesterday, i managed my life positively & finally naabot ko na ang pangarap ko - at nagsisimula ulit ako ng panibagong ipopokpok sa utak ko! hahaha 

The best of me kasi i've seen my worst already! This is now the moment i can say, ito na ang best ko! This is it, I am ready! ! After all, life is too short to waste it! So let's grab & have that drink (tubig lang diet ako! hahaha) 

Huling huli na ito - say HI also to my new post template (a.k.a signature)! 

Totoo na ito!

So yes! i made a new header! This means that the day has finally come (charaught!) na papalitan ko na ang header ko at totoo na ito, magcchange ako ng background na! Kakayanin ko tong gawin ito in the next 3 hours (malakas ang net for now haha) sana nga!!! wwoooott!!! patambling tambling!! giling giling!!! spliittttinngg!! hahaha 

You, just made a difference!

All of a sudden, I remembered I still have this, my blog! Woooootttt.. the last time I had an update was January 11, 2014, kumusta  naman?!! (spleeett! Haha)

For 3 months, oh my God! Rroooowwwttss!!!

A lot of things happened and I guess some of you knew it through my facebook account. To the left, to the right, forward, backward ang requirements ko for my final year. Really. I don’t want to elaborate that because I don’t want to bore you at all. Charr!!!

So much to that, I just wanted to say thank you to PBO members and especially Mommy joy. You guys will always be part of my success in life. I am glad that along my journey, I have met you all. My special mention to my very very best buddy online blogger, si feyel! Yes si feyel! Those times that nobody knows how down I was during the compilation of requirements that something came up, he was there to brighten up my day, to lighten up the heavy heart and never get tired of listening to my stupid woes. (at ang very best goal now din is we will have a picture of us!! to justify why we are best buds online!! charroottss!! hahahaha) I am tough, I am strong but even how strong I am, minsan nagbbreakdown ako, simply because I am just a human too.  Yes hindi ako hayop, tao ako! Lol echus!

On serious note, I made you all as my inspiration to aspire more in life, to believe that dreams come true one day, to this, I know I can extend more of my time and life to those who are in need. Honestly, I just don’t want to do that, what I really want is to make a big unique difference to everybody.  Something that I can be their inspiration in getting their dreams, to believe as well that dreams are not just dreams, they are made to happen.  Thank you once again for the small and big things, those simple laughs, thoughts and little hi’s and hello’s, you are making a difference in my life. Thank you guys.

I got it! I made it! One chapter ends and another is ready to open! Hello Social Work Board Review!

Above all, Thank you God for leading me to my purpose in life. Becoming an architect is not my destination; indeed becoming a Registered Social Worker is my call. 

Tele-Talatak-Contest-Winners

Bam baam baaamm boooomm!! Shake it to the right!! Shake it to the left!! I am getting so sexy and I know it!! Ohhh lalala sabay splleeett with hands up in the air!! Telelalalala baaamm booom!! Ohh!! Bang!!

Tunog ng kampana sabay-sabay buong pilipinas

Heto na… heto na.. heto na…

DOO-BIDOO-BI-DOO, BIDOO-BIDOO

(drums) bam!! Baam!! Bang!!

Dahil tapos na ang 1^st quarter natin, I am going to announce sino ang nanalo sa Mr. & Ms. TelaDaldal (daldalera at daldalero) sa blog ko. makakatanggap sila ng premyo galing sa akin at autograph (artistang artista lang? hahaha) I am going to mail my prize kung sino man ang nagwagi ( speech pls? lol )

Sila ang natatanging walang sawang sumubaybay sa aking mga emohan,  sa mga walang kwentang blog post minsan, sa mga paniniwala ko nong ako ay  bata pa at mga kababalaghan na nangyayari sa aking buhay, silang dalawa ang masasabing kong PINAKA-madaldal since nagbalik akong magblog.

So eto na ba?

Clap clap clap kampana ay kailangan mag-ingay para may feelings…

Drum rolls… tarrraaagggg taaaggg baaggggg…

Dapat maingay para mawala ang mga malas. Chos. Haha

Kaibigang malusog, pati puso ay kasing laki pa ng kanyang katawan. Bago pa lang ako sa PBO noon, at kakabalik ko lang sa mundo ng blogsphere, siya! Siya ang feeling kong tahimik, demure (chos lang para hindi masira ang reputation) at hindi ko alam pa ano ba talaga ang totoo sa mala-devil niyang mukha este mala-anghel pala, siya ang isa sa una kong naging taga daldal at mahilig gumawa ng reaction paper sa blog ko. deep inside me (seryos ako dito lol) I feel this urge? Urge talaga ang term ko eh ano? Hahaha palit-palitan, panira ng moment hahaha anyways, hindi man kami madalas nagkukulitan, hindi pa kami din nagkikita ng personal, we just talk some matters of our life ganyan ganon chika seryos sa buhay (reets) oo may ganyan kaming moment kapag nagugutom ang mga alaga sa tiyan lol pero he is one of the bloggers na kilala ko na super totoo, walang keme, walang pretentions at lahat sinasabi walang takot sabihin ang kanyang saloobin, kinokontra niya kaming mga babae at pwes pinanindigan talaga (langhiya hahaha). Feeling ko at sinasabi nila, na siya ang katapat ko sa kaingayan, sa kalandian at iniisip ng madla pano nalang kapag nagsanib pwersa na kami! (may powers2x lang?)

Wala akong choice talaga, alam mo that awkward moment na wala kang choice to announce sino ang nanalo? Hahahaha jowk.

Ingay-ingay ulet pls… I need splleeetersss.. im requesting josh of KULAPITOT to do that, do that. Lol

Ito naman si Ms. TeleDaldal for this 1^st quarter, sa sobrang ingay ko, at napunta ako sa blog niya, tahimik ang peg ko, nahihiya ako kasi feeling ko si God ang nakikipagusap sakin, na-eenlighten ako whenever I stopped and read. Somehow on the other side (dual personality? Haha lol) na-lilift up ako with the words, quotes and verses she threw sa blog niya at hindi lang ako naman ang may ganong feeling but everyone does. It help us, it reminded us that no matter how busy we are sa araw-araw, kailangan natin magkaron din ng relasyon kay God, hindi lang tayo dapat magaling sa pakikipagrelasyon sa ibang tao. Kilalang kilala siya sa blogsphere na siya ang granny na bagets, mommy ng lahat. Nagmamasid man siya sa mga kabataan ngayon, sa ano man ang iniisip natin, ano ang takbo ng ating mga utak natin, she knew that it’s too far from what she used to see but ni minsan wala akong narinig na pinagalitan niya tayo (hahahaha) dahil lahat naintindihan niya, inintindi niya ng walang judgment at doubt. Siya ang Ms. TeleDaldal this 1^st quarter dahil hindi niya pinapalagpas ang kanyang iniisip sa bawat blog entry ko, may sense man o wala.

So ito na talaga, this is it na really… drum rolls again so hard… please.. requesting mecoy and animal friends feyel, kat and pao na gumawa ng mecoy face at ikot ikot kembot kembot at lahat jump then dapa bigla, dyan lang dapa lang kayo, wag kayong tatayo hanggang hindi ko sinabi (hahaha)

So here it is finally… ohalalalalalala telelalalala tadaaanngg…

Sila ang Mr. & Ms. TeleDaldal for the 1st quarter. 

Senyor Iskwater

Joy's Notepad 

I am lucky! i found this pic through Zai's album (thanks zai hihihi)

Sa lahat ng naging parte ng blog na ito, super akong nagpapasalamat sa inyong lahat, you've been my inspiration kaya ng hindi sinasadya mas lalo akong nagiingay rooots. sana wag kayong magsawang maki-ingay at maging parte ng buhay ko, i am so pleased na maging parte kayo ng paglalakbay ng aking buhay. salamat ng marami sa inyong lahat.

May darating pang 2nd quarter, end of June mag-aannounce ulit ako ng winner base on sa dami ng comment mula sa araw nato forward until June 30th. So samahan niyo ulit akong mag-ingay sa darating na tatlong buwan!

CONGRATULATIONS po sa inyo!! 

P.S

Mommygranny joy, enge ako ng add mo where i can mail my prize. i already have the address of senyor. hihihi thanks mommygranny!

TelelalahKRAS

Telelelalaissues, Telelalanews and telelalaupdate for now.

Dahilan ito sa nagkagulong usapan sa twitter dahil sa tweet ko na “may blogger kras ako!” hahaha I made that revelation after I have realized that ok na pala ako (charroooss) wala lang, nakalimutan ko kasi yang blogger kras na yan for a year kasi naging busy ako sa life. roots.

When blogger kras added me sa twitter at nagccomment ulit ako sa blog niya, there! I realized again na “ayon oh! May blogger kras pa rin ako! Lol”

Open the curtain please, now na… sabay may sayaw pandanggo sa ilaw.

He is funny I may say, may humor siya ng bongga talaga, masungit minsan hindi ko alam basta ma-challenge yong ugali niya hahaha, cute ang pagiging maangas niya, hindi masyadong ngumiti most of the pics na nakita ko sa kanyang blog. Matalino syempre kasi feeling ko lang kapag ang lalaking nagbblog matalino talaga kasi pambabae lang ang may peg sa mga online diary slash blogging na sa panahon natin. Siya ay may malawak at malaki ang pangarap na nakikita ko ang aking sarili sa mga view niya sa buhay kaya siguro na-attract ako sa mga pananaw niya (may tinikling na sumasayaw habang kumakanta si pabarote)

Sarado ang kurtina… wooossshhh…

Drum roll… tug-dogodog-dah-dah-baaam!

Sasabihin ko na sa ating mother earth, ito pa ang maging dahilan ko para maselya elektreka pa ang aking pinakaka-ingatang kuyukot gaya ng sabi nila Ms. P (phioxee) sabay may boykot pang magaganap.

Nararamdaman ko ang kanilang pagkakadesperate na alamin sino si kras, nalagay ako sa hot seat ng isang oras at halos buwis buhay ang tinamo ko dahilan sa pagiimbestiga nila sino ba talaga siya. Ang sinabi ko naman, wala naman akong balak mamahalin si kras, hanggang hanga lang ako sa kanyang way of expressing himself sa mundo ng blogging (reasons! Char!)

Hard core drum roll… daaag!! Daaagg!! Bang! Baaang!!

Natawa pa ako sa sobrang pagkakadesperate nila ay itong si ate gracie (graciesnetwork) kumapit na sa babae (kumapit talaga sa patalim si ate hahaha) ginawa pa akong bisexual or kaya tomboy! Hahaha hindi ako makaget over sa kanyang sinabi dahil it’s the least I expect pang mangyayari hahaha ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagiging desperada ni ate gracie. Hahaha

Dagdag pang sinabi ko ang may AEIOU sa pangalan niya (feeling lang naman) kaya ipinilit ang Mario Verdan Junior which may AEIOU nga naman! Hahaha pero hindi! Hindi si koyah mar! hahaha reserved muna yan si koyah mar! cheereets! Hahaha

May isa pa! si EMPI, ang text brigade niya wagas na wagas! Ang mga sagot ni empi sa mga clue na binibigay ko ay ramdam ko ang thrill puro OMG!, Syet!, Kainis! Ganyan lang hahaha kahit nasa daan ako naglalakad, hindi pa rin tapos sa pagtatanong si empi at mukha na akong eng-eng kakatawa hawak ang cp at naglalakad sa daan! Lol

At si archie, nakoh! Hindi daw siya nakatulog! Megenun talaga? Hahaha kinakabahan ata si archie na siya ang maging kras ko eh! Hahaha nooo, im saving you archie for future use only! Hahaha maharot ka eh! Hahaha jowk

At si snobkat? Alam na ito dahil madalas itong kakulitan ni kat sa twitter! So alam na! hahaha

Ok ito na talaga…

Buksan ang kurtina ulet… (lagyan ng background  music na urong sulong)

At bang! Baaang! Bang!! Dagadag-dagadagdagdag-booom!!! Peenngg!!

Siya ang lalaking natawa nong paborito ko ang pet na biik aka baboy (sagwa) lang lol yan na! mahanap niyo na yan sa twitter! Go get him now na! lol

ang blogger kras ko ay hanggang sa panghanga lang ako dahil siya ang lalaking version ng pananaw ko sa buhay. ganyan lang wag na kayong magisip ng iba lol *evil grin* 

Drum rolls again… dag-dag-dag-dadadagdag-boom-beng!!! sabay tayo ang mga taong nakatingin at pinagbabato ng bomba ang stage! Hahahaha

Ring a bell, Ring a bell

This only happens because I lost my yahoo account, everything I felt like yeah it’s over. That was my personal email account, all my work and school related documents, I lost it, I lost everything. Ito ang nag-udyok sakin to create a new one, tumiming pang nasira ko accidentally ang email ko sa blogspot. Nabago ko ang email ko don sa “captured realities” and I felt disappointed really. All syet happens a month ago.

After kong mag-emote nong last post ko sa captured realities, at nangyari ang itong accidente sa mga accounts ko then I felt like I need to change everything. There should be not just something new in me but everything should be new in me. Life has to start again I believe, to live in the present and hope for our future. (i sound like a bayani haha) Well, I am happy now, seriously.

After the busy-busyhan sa school, ito nagkaron din ako ng time na harapin ang aking blog, buti nalang na-save ko pa ang mga old posts ko dahil bago ko gawin magsuicide sa mga email churvah ng blogger (trying to change it again) ginawa kong magimport ng mga post kaya ito meron pa rin natira sakin pero iba pa rin ang pakiramdam dahil bago na ang pangalan ko sa blog.

Ginawa kong TELELALAHBELLS dahil minsan akong nagpost ng picture sa fb ko sa bakasyon probinsya na gumala ako doon sa isang palayan tapos may isa pala akong picture na si PAOKUN lang ang nakapansin na mukha akong isang teletubby at bonggang tawa ko kasi when I checked it again, sabi ko holy syet oo nga tama kasi may headphone ako at in action ako sa picture. Doon ko nakuha ang TELE (teletubbies of PAOKUN) and kyut na rin kasi ang tele kasi when I checked it sa dictionary, technically it refers to “at a distance” at dahil na rin feeling ko na-isolate ako sa isang city na wala akong kasamang blogger dito kasi halos nasa manila lahat at lagi akong lugi sa mga meet ups kaya tamang tama ang TELE dahil sa distance nay an (letch! Lol) at yang BELLS na yan, madalas kasi sa totoong buhay my friends used to add up “bols” or “bels” sa last name ko like “lalah bells, larrah bells or larrah bols” para lang may madagdag sila lol at dagdag pa itong si "dearheart/braveheart" twitter na gumaganyan din, yong pangalan kong LALAH may kasunod minsan na BEBE, kaya ito ginawa ko ng buo lahat haha 

Requested ni PAOKUN ang picture nato. lol si LALA yong nakayellow pero mukha akong si PO ata dito haha

Nagbago man ang lahat nasa blog ko ngayon, ako pa rin ito, yong blogger na laging hinihingi kay FIELKUN na kung gagawa man sya ulet ng storya, wag ako ang magbuwis ng buhay ako ang dapat ang nagbibigay ng buhay (kambal-kambalan para isang ere lang lol) at dapat ako ang sexy at lumuwal ng kuyukot, ganyan! at may part din pala si fiel (read as feyel talaga, harteh lang niya yan lol) sa telelalahbells na yan dahil para lang daw telephone company at ang nasa vein ng utak ko naman parang sinasabi lang niya na ang daldal ko nga talaga dahil sa ingay ng bell parang gusto niya akong idescribe doon!  nahiya lang siyang sabihin sakin. Haha 

Seryoso,  nagbago man ang blog ko slight, its still what you see is what you get in me, I still have a big heart as big as my mala anne Curtis body, ang kumontra magkakaron ng alipunga. So ito na talaga yon, a new blogsite, a new perspective, views and love coming soon pa yan, wag epal! Hahaha

Nakakabuhay ng dugo ang mga Ti..

Naaliw lang ako at gusto ko lang ito ipost para hindi ko makalimutan ang usapan na ito…

Masaya ang aking kasamahan dito sa opisina at ubod ang kwento niya sa lahat.

Sabi niya…

May isang anak na nagdurusa kasi namatay ang kanyang tatay. Ang sabi nong anak sa embalmer…

Anak: pls maawa ka, sana gwapo at mukhang bata ang tatay ko sa kanyang burol.

Embalmer: ako na po bahala maam, trabaho po naming ito.

Sa burol ng kanyang tatay, ang mga taong dudungaw sa kabaong, laging nakasmile at tumawa, parang masayang masaya daw…

Hindi kasi tumingin ang anak dahil sobrang nasasaktan pa siya sa mga pangyayari. Pero dahil nakangiti bawat taong dumalo, nainggit at tiningnan din niya ito…

Kaya pala...

Mukhang bata nga yong tatay niya kasi nilagyan ng embalmer yong tatay niya ng DEDE sa bibig.

Akala ko ay tapos na ang usapan, dinagdagan niya na naman.

Sabi ng kasama ko ulit…

Lahat ng mga bakla, igather lahat nga mga bakla.. completoh na ang mga gays sa isang lugar.. at biglang sinabi na..

Ayan na sila dakpin at ikulong…

Biglang takbohan at kanya kanyang diskarte sa pag-escape…

Ang sabi nong kasama ko… HOY hindi pah ako tapos…

Ang sabi ko, dakpin at ikulong silang lahat kasi mamumudmod ng mga tit*…

At ang mga bakla.. balik tayoh balik tayoh… (hirap eexplain haha at nagtranslate ako from bisaya to tagalog lol)

Hindi ko alam kung bakit lunch na lunch eh mga tit* ang usapan hahaha ang saya kapag ang mga kasama mo eh lahat may asawa na at anak kasi ang daming alam. Ang virgin ko pa sa mga bagay na iyan! Wala akong alam! Lol

At dumagdag pa rin ang mga tit* na tumatakbo sa daan, may mataba, maliit, pandak, mahaba lahat na. hahaha oh my god ano ba ang kukunin ko kapag yan ay maging totoo! Hahaha jowk!!!!!

Papaya you!

Gaano kato-too na ang papaya ay nakakawala ng libog? Kaya ba ang mga madre at pari sa kanilang bakuran ay maraming tanim na papaya? Para maiwasan ang libog at temptasyon? Lol ang panget ng intro ko, hahaha naisip ko lang itanong yan kasi bumili ako ng papaya kanina pauwi, timing kasi  na ang main road ng city, trapik dahil may prosesyon ng nazareno, kaya dumaan ako sa isang daan kung saan papuntang palengke at nagagandahan ako sa mga papaya, kaya bumili ako! Inggitera lang!

Kaya ito na kinakain ko na habang latag ang aking gagawin para sa documentation and photo docu sa upcoming event na leadership training seminar ng mga leaders sa iba’t ibang school ng buong Mindanao that offers the course social work.

Ang dami ko pang gagawin, kanina pa ako kating kati na magblog hop pero hindi ko magawa ng bongga kasi tambak ang mga requirements. (pero sadyang hindi ko mapigilan, il give myself hour to do that lel) Sabagay parang mas madaling paandarin ang utak ko kapag malapit na ang deadline pero ayoko ng ganon sa totoo lang kasi hindi ko makikita ano man ang mali doon, pero dahil nagpakasawa ako sa bakasyon, ito ang napapala ko, cramming! Pero nakagawa pa ako ng blogpost! Hahaha

Balik sa papaya, kung totoo ngang nakakawala ng gana yon, abah hindi ako affected dyan ngayon! Hahaha keber lang! sabagay ang daldal ko at ang tapang ko sa mga kabulastogan na usapan pero parang minsan ang hirap gawin in reality! Lol saka ko nalang ikwento ang papaya na yan kapag maprove ko na nakakawalang gana nga yan! Hihihi

P.S.

Namatay ako sa inggit sa mga pictures ng PBOers sa kanilang outreach program at may utang pa akong pastel, hindi pa ako nakapagpadala dahil na rin sa sched ko na bawat minuto ay nangangalabit sakin! Isang araw this week or next week sana ako naman ang magkaron ng chance to knock out my sched to live a little.

Basta nandito lang ako, kapag may time nakakabasa naman ako ng inyong blog hindi lang nakakapagcomment ng kasing haba ng isang post. Lol

Reality 4: Sa araw na ito... mabubuo ang...

Ito ang naisip ko sa aking kaarawan, we have 4 quarters of the year, tama? Naisipan kong magbigay ng award or regalo sa top commentator sa blog ko. Hmmm… never ko pa itong ginawa, first time ko ito (kinakabahan jowk!) this is my way to say thank you to my readers, followers and friends. Naisipan ko lang dahil nainggit ako kay Lawrence na naman! Hahaha siguro dalawang top commentator ang bibigyan ko ng award at regalo with live interview? Lol hindi siguro depende sa aking idagdag, sa ano man ang maisipan ko in three months. Tagal! Haha

Pero totoo, ang dalawang top commentator ko ay may reward, award at regalo galing sakin every quarter. “daldalera at daldalero of the quarter” yan ang maging titolo ninyo. Hahaha

Ito ang araw na nabuo nga ang aking pangalan na redundant masyado pero naniniwala ako na ito ay swerte dahil bawat transaction, napapatigil dahil sa pangalan ko, at ito ay kailangan nila itanong ng paulit-ulit sa akin. Siguro ito talaga ang binigay ni lord para sakin para na rin ito sa kinabukasan ko. Ganyan! Hehehe

Ang nanay ko ay nakapag-asawa at the age of 29 years old, and ang tatay ko ay 22 lang that time, nagulat ako ng malaman ko ito dahil ang bata ng tatay ko, hindi naman siguro minolestya ng nanay ko ang tatay ko ano? Hahaha sila talaga ay nagmamahalan hanggang ngayon kahit wala na ang mama ko sa amin dahil nasa bahay na siya ni lord, ayaw na talaga mag-asawa ng tatay ko, ok! Buti yan! Hehe

Lumaki akong boyish dahil ang kasama ko sa bahay palagi noon ay ang tatay ko dahil wala pa siyang trabaho nong pinanganak ako ng nanay ko at the age of 32, oo 32 talaga, isang miracle baby pa ako sa lagay na iyan dahil kakaopera pa ng ovary ng nanay ko daw at sinabihan siya ng doctor na hindi na sila magkaka-anak ng tatay ko. Anak kaya nila ako?! Hahaha lol anak na anak talaga nila ako, ang mukha ko, ugali ko kanilang kanila lang hindi maitatanggi! Lol hindi naman ako tomboy, boyish lang talaga ako! May self-awareness naman ako kaya alam ko ang aking genderlow! Kereh lang yan! May matres pa naman ako yan ang siguro pero natatakot ako ng slight kasi parang natatanggal na ito dahil nagdagdag na naman ng taon sa edad ko! Hahaha

Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa lahat ng readers ko, followers at kaibigan ko sa blogspero. (parang artista lang lol) salamat kasi hindi kayo nagsawang magbasa kahit alam kong nagsskip read ka rin, nagccomment palagi about sa huling paragraph kasi yon lang ang tanging binabasa hahaha kahit papano, malaking karangalan ang bisitahin ang aking blog sa bagohang katulad ko. Ito ang simula ng taon ng ating pagsasama bilang mga blogero, bago man o matanda na sa pagbblog, it doesn’t matter, as long as we are free to express our views, thoughts and opinions kereh lang yan. Alam ko maging busy ako this year din, but dahil sa inyong lahat, kayo ang aking inspirasyon para ipagpatuloy ano man ang aking nasimulan. (ganyan! parang ad lang)

Salamat sa inyo ng marami, sa inyong lahat, alam niyo na kung sino kayo. Happy birthday to me!! Hehe

P.S may mga greetings na ako galing sa fb, at salamat sa inyo, will make a separate post on that para special din. ganyan! echos! hehehe salamat sa mga bumati sa akin, nauna man or mahuli. kereh lang yan! you made my birthday a happy one talaga! thanks!! 

 

Isang araw balang araw

Nuh!! it’s a long week for me, started all my majors and still trying to fix my schedule for this semester. This is gonna be a tough semester with 6 majors and 4 minors. Goodluck to me! Lesson to keep now is how to balance my time, learn to have stress management though I’ve been watching movie series or movie as my stress management and that helps me rejuvenate.

It was Thursday when my teacher announced that we finally have a book to use for the medical social work subject (super happy kami sabay clap our hands and even we prayed to thanked that book!!! amay-ober that moment!! bohahaha) courtesy of my classmate too who happen to have an aunt in one of the government hospital in this city, who is also the head of the medical social services, we secretly grab the book for photocopy, the book is exclusive for the hospital and even before I know na bawal ipotocopy ang libro para pag-aralan dahil yon daw ang sabi ng head ng DOH ba yon. Madamot sila! Lels!!

377 pesos ang worth ng photocopy sa librong yon, makapal! Tan-ena! how will I finish to read that book, ang dami pang nakapila!! Bakit ba!! Kasalanan ko na dahil enter ng enter ako sa korsong to! Hahaha you know why I talked about this? Kasi before, the first course na kinuha ko, at hindi ako naging successful dahil sumuka na ako, maganda ang libro ko noon, hard bound, glossy, with a lot of pictures pa, sikat at mahal pero I never opened and read those books. Tamad talaga ako, since bata pa! bohahaha Ngayon dahil kulang ang resources namin, walang Filipino author na nagpaka-batman to make a book for the young social workers sa pilipinas dahil kapag social worker ka sobrang busy ka, halos wala ka ng oras sa pamilya dahil sa dedikasyon sa trabaho! Over na over! Maniwala ka! Totoo yon! isang araw balang araw wag naman sana mangyari sa akin ang ganyan ka-busy! hahaha 

Lumang libro at author ang pinagtyagaan namin, kung noon ang sarap ng libro ko, maganda tingnan, dekalidad ang mga author dahil mga foreigner, ngayon to compare it, mas binigyan ko ng importance to read books out from photocopies nalang! Hahaha napaka IRONIC to me! Because when I have good and great books, I don’t scan them, now we only have photocopies, mas nagtyaga ako! Tan-ena! hahaha I just don’t have a choice dahil sa tan-enang expectation na yan kaya kailangan laging handa!! Hahaha at kailangan maabot ko ang pangarap kong maging tulad ni d-soliman balang araw!!! Bohahaha

Sunday's best now

It’s Sunday! It’s rest day! It’s family day! i learned to value that after I realized I was hooked up with work and school. I still work on school stuff even Sundays, I can’t refuse it when in terms of school papers and exams. I am trying to adjust my entire schedule now, learning to stay at home kapag Sunday, having coffee with my sissy and tita, lunch with my father and a simple dinner too. It’s a nice a feeling, I just felt it kasi naging visible na ako sa bahay! Hahaha I cooked to feel that I belong to the family, kasi parang nasa ibang bansa kami kapag weekdays, we bought our food sa labas, everything is rush kapag may trabaho.

 When I started to go back to school a year and a half now, binago ko lahat, my views, habit, the way I think to some things, attitude, everything I learned to change it dahil for me, I cannot touch others’ lives, make difference, or help them change their views if sa sarili ko I am still the same. I am changing for good, honestly! Hahaha if dati I don’t read my books, now I learned to read more, wala akong choice! Tan-ena! if you don’t read, nga-nga! Na nga-nga! Ka sa klase! And nakakahiya kasi ako ang ate sa klase, may work na related sa course so simple lang mataas ang expectation nila! Hahaha

I just added something sa change na yan, I will learn more to keep Sunday free from work and school stuff. Sana! It’s good to be home, lying in your bed, reading, blogging, etc. and guess what, I learnt it too na kapag weekend, off ang celphone ko! Hahaha yan! Para walang istorbo! No clients, no emergencies from school and work! It’s just me, family and my home! Sarap!!!  

This sharpens your brain!

With my allergy attack na naging super OA na, nakapag-absent ako sa work! Pffftt! While at home, I take the chance to finish watching the “suits” I so love both of them, Harvey and mike! Can’t stop, it’s addictive. I should finish the complete season 2 if weren’t for my classmates who texted me that we have a class by 4pm to 5:30 instead of 5:30-8:30. Caught in the middle! I only have 30 minutes to prepare myself, it’s 3:00 and I know I will be late.

after ritual and preparation... umalis na ako ng bahay.

Malas pa! I was waiting for a taxi pero wala! None pass infront of me!! Can you actually believe that in a city!? Ohh shaaxx!! It leaves me no choice but to ride a jeepney, in the middle of the city, there goes the traffic jam! When I realized I can’t get through with it, I stop, bumaba ako! I look for a motorcycle and shits again, no one is available to take me to school, it’s not their route, so I decided again to look for taxi, it took me 3 minutes waiting, oh thank I thought God wouldn’t answer my prayer!

I arrived 4:25 pm at the gate and I know I am sooo late with that, it’s the first day of class, my major! Shit I thought! Hahaha i ran into the lobby, up to the third floor, hiningal pa ako! When Im about to reach the classroom door, here’s the checker! (super inday as we call her, because she does a lot of things, she’s good, before you say it, she handed it to you!) for the faculty attendance, and boom! “you are super late!” I just couldn’t say something kasi hiningal pa ako! I got in, and guess what? Hindi pa nagsisimula yong clase! Nagtaxi pa ako! Hahaha Nagbayad ng 70 pesos para hindi ako malate! Sayang! Inisip ko nalang na kinain ko yong 70 pesos at hindi na ako nagdinner sa school para tipid na rin! Hahaha

Si Harvey at mike lang ang pwedi kong i-blame sa nangyari! I got hooked with episodes 1-8. I finished the 9 and 10 when I got home. Episode 9 broke me! I cried I felt it! It’s all done now, going to miss them until January of 2013. You must see it! It sharpens your brain! It did to me! Hahaha

Kung dumikit sa hita, wagas!

Atch! Na allergy! Malas! It’s in my thigh and butt! Hahaha I was with this culminating activity, pang finals ang banat, we conducted it sa beach and guess what, it rained! Sucks! Eh!? But it’s really really fun that all of us enjoyed it! We sat on the sand, crawl and played a little games. We ended almost 12 in the midnight. The next morning, I just realized there’s something itchy in my legs up to my thigh and butt. I look into it and boom! Boom! It seems a lot of insects suck it! Hahaha shit!

3 days after, it’s gone. No treatment, no ointment. Then it’s a long weekend next dahil undas na. we went to my mother’s grave, my lola and lolo and other relatives. The last thing I remember, I only sat adjacent to my mom’s grave, hindi siya tiles pero pebbles lang to be specific. That night, doing my usual routine I felt again there’s something itchy. Fuck! There goes my allergy again! And I wondered how it happened, I only sat to that pebbles then? Boom! Again?! The hell!

Ang pangit ng pwet ko! I swear to mother earth! Hahaha I can’t even look kasi parang isang mukha lang na butas-butas dahil sinumpa ang pimples! When was that? Undas? Until now, paks! Hell! Nandito pa rin! I tried all the ointment, medicine, wa epeks! Oh man! My aunt-grandmother says baka isang “buyag” (I don’t know what’s the English or tagalog with that word) dahil may natapakan akong mga puntod na hindi ako nagpapaalam, I find it too much if that is kasi until now galit pa rin sila sa akin! Hahaha

I tried all the rituals to let this remove in my thigh, bumili na ako ng ingredients na ginagamit ng mga albularyo to take all away the evil spirits, wa epeks pa rin! Hahaha i made all the research in the internet about this, it all came out na dermatitis lang, simpleng reddish, may malaki at maliit, it’s like an insect bite,  it’s common to me, I always have this since I was a child, I just wondered bakit feel na feel pa rin niya hipoin ang hita ko! Ang bastos naman ng dermatitis  nato! I need to take anti-histamine so I will have a good sleep at night! Hope not to see it the next morning dahil it’s really itchy! Hahaha

Isang huling iyak daw

After I posted my last entry, I tried to open my winamp and boom! Boom! Suddenly it’s a love song! Bohahaha one last cry ang drama ni winamp! Tan-ena! i forgot to change my playlist earlier while Im in the office. The music is trying to change my mood after being “a little angry” mood kanina. Probably this will lead to drama! Walang funny sa one last cry! Hahaha I did that, I really did that but there’s still pain inside my heart that I couldn’t explain it, I can’t even express it. I am not lonely, I am not sad, maybe I am just hurt and I accepted that feeling.

I told you, maging madamdamin na ang post nato dahil sa lintik na one last cry na yan! Bohahaha I wanted to laugh about it pero seriously if only alam niya how much I am missing the old days, the old us, killing me softly ang dating ng feeling na yan! (saksakin ang puso!!) hindi ko rin pweding tapatan ng kanta ni dingdong avanzado ba? The “why can’t it be”  because hindi nga talaga pwedi! Tatanga tanga ako kapag go ng go go ako! This emotion is just temporary, I will go through this, I still have a life and a dream to reach. Kaya ko ‘to! Hahaha kebs na!!

Medyo matagal din na hindi ako nakinig sa playlist nato, tambak! Tinago at  nilibing! Hinukay ko para malaman saan na ba ang puso ko!! Charus!! Hahaha pero ang totoo I still feel the pain! Heeeww! I am trying, I keep on telling myself na kaya ko to! I did this before, I can still do this now! maybe one day, I will lose my feelings but I always remember how great it was. Hanggang doon nalang!! Tapos ang usapan! Lels!!

Distorted thoughts

i decided to take this blog site permanently. I may be so busy in my life but I am still hoping I can drop myself, my thoughts and emotions here. i admit that I can’t recall things easily especially that runs over the years already, or maybe there are parts of my brain that refuses to remember some things unconsciously. In life, we can’t get away from problems, our intense emotions towards yourself, to other people even and I want to take that down every moment I spend with in my life. This blog site serves to be my partner in recalling things someday.

The good thing in blogging is no one will criticize your grammar, people give you the freedom to speak, to share and express what you got in yourself, it’s limitless. I have been blogging quite some time and It gave me a thought that if only I have saved those posts my emotions I had, probably I will be looking and reading them right now and think what have I done to myself! Hahaha

Blogging is one of my comfort zone as I say, I am free to express my feelings whether I am angry, sad or happy but so far what I’ve got was being angry, hurt and frustrated oh my gosh! Hahaha people might think I am not a happy person at all, lels!! Each person has his strong and weak points, no one is perfect! Our emotions are temporary because it changes in time, it varies. Maybe for now, I am not that happy as I wanted to be but soon enough I will find my own way to happiness. Anyways, happy blogging to me!! 

Real books vs. eBooks

There are a lot of things I want to do, like reading all the best motivational books, learning photoshop more, blogging, preparing the books for my major subjects this 2^nd semester. Definitely I can’t do it all simultaneously. I only have few days to relax before classes get started. It will be a busy semester for me, I got all 6 majors and I am also preparing myself for my practicum, hopefully. I am almost there to reach my dreams.

I am a frustrated reader. When I was a child, my father always encourages me to read books because he believes that by reading, you’ll get smarter, I don’t believe that at all, because I am just too lazy reading books, before I read it, I already fall asleep. Lels. Now that I am grown up, I certainly agree to my father! Hahaha today, I am always in a hurry to read books, I have downloaded ebooks, pdf about motivational books from bo sanchez, mitch albom, Rhonda byrne etc. They are one of those popular authors in time now. I am dying to read all of them in one day but I just couldn’t, I still have problems with my habit, I really adore people who are bookworm because they won’t stop until they finish the book. Wish I have that habit.

I love to watch books on the shelves but I don’t dare to get one and read, I am comfortable with our eBooks now. I have friends who still love to buy books from the store where I think every book now can be downloaded already from the net, they say, they still love to turn on the pages, to hold every page so they will feel the excitement of reading, well, that’s their views, they are comfortable with that and I still go for ebooks. Lol

I can’t stop downloading ebooks; I want to have them all in my adobe library so it will remind me to read whenever I have a free time. Wish in time, I have a good habit in reading. =)

Another good start to blog

I already have a lot in mind but I just couldn’t start blogging because I don’t feel like making a post when I know there’s a lot to work on with the blogsite. It’s not finish yet but I think this is better than how it look before. Anyway, I hope this is another good start for me to blog, to share what I know and feel towards the given life.

I got this feeling of excitement with the new look I made in this blog site. This is something between the light and dark theme. It does obviously mean that in reality, we go through darkness so that we will know how to appreciate when there’s light. Life is simple, we just make it complicated. People think too much, over do things as well, I myself is an over thinker, I don’t know and I couldn’t give an explanation why. I over do things, that’s why sometimes I can’t meet my own expectations. I get disappointed and frustrated but I rationalized things so It won’t give me heartaches.

Just like the blog header, the first thing I did was, I created a typography design on it but I have difficulties putting in the blogsite so I shifted it to something simple. I still won’t stop until I learn how to make it right. 

Old twitter widget code

Twitter doesn't look good on their widgets now, the old one is better. I am glad I have saved the html code, I could still place it on the blog site and just modify my background, links and text through colors from photoshop. I will share this code you might still want this kind of look. I searched a lot about twitter widget and I couldn't find any html (old twitter widget), I hope this will help. 

<script charset="utf-8" src="http://widgets.twimg.com/j/2/widget.js"></script>

<script>

new TWTR.Widget({

  version: 2,

  type: 'search',

  search: 'boinkyboinkz',

  interval: 30000,

  title: 'boinx',

  subject: 'captured realities',

  width: 210,

  height: 330,

  theme: {

    shell: {

      background: '#19bddd',

      color: '#444444'

    },

    tweets: {

      background: '#6dda6d',

      color: '#92094c',

      links: '#0c343d'

    }

  },

  features: {

    scrollbar: false,

    loop: false,

    live: true,

    behavior: 'default'

  }

}).render().start();

</script>