Masakit sa panga na Birthday Special

Just before anything else, I assume to insert the song “ayokong tumanda” hahaha

It is a late birthday post! Yes nalang! Busy slight. Chos!

I can’t thanked enough those people who made my birthday a “real” happy birthday! Hahaha and a complete one. Those who greeted me through text, personal facebook & twitter, THANK YOU! You have been part of my special day & I will keep all your thoughts, wishes and messages.

Just before my birthday, I intentionally bake my chocolate moist cake – 3 days ago I think because “habang tumatagal, lalong sumasarap!” parang tanduay rum lang ang peg eh! Hahaha sa sobrang excited ko ata, I made a mistake hahaha so hindi naging flat ang cake, naging mukhang basin lang naman hahaha

My friends surprised me with a magic candle, just prior to that I was very anxious that they bought a candle na saktong edad ko talaga, it’s like I’ve been telling them “sige, I won’t blow that candle!” YEAH I am still in denial stage, be it! Wala naman yan sa edad eh, it’s just how you live your life! Hahaha (explain dot com haha)

So we had a wonderful intro birthday of lighting the sparklers! Yey! Then blowing of candles, I realized 5 secs after that hindi mauubos yong candle pala kasi nga magic candles! Nganga! Hahaha so I just keep on blowing it until I said that “ang sakit na ng panga ko!” hahaha sabay may shortness of breathe na! hahaha

Aside from the blowing of candles, laughter and smiles that moment, the most important lesson I learned was “time is very important” you’ll never know how long your family & friends will stay by your side, to make you laugh, smile and feel loved. Basta, masaya ako sa birthday ko & that’s it! I am making the most of my life!

Anyways, my birthday was full of realization also. Life is too short to waste, to worry and to dwell on something that does not belong anymore to your future as much as to your present. I have lost some of my gold in the year 2014 and everything just made sense today, I have gained so much, a diamond instead, very priceless and rare - & God made me realized on that day. Thank you to my ever dearest loved ones – Bonjing, Juan, Imyang, Mecmec and Adah. I don’t have to elaborate everything here, I have said enough already & a simple Thank you for making my birthday possible and a memorable one to all of us. I love you to the moon and back!

I can’t post those birthday presents coz u know my mobile is getting so old! Hahaha the file is in my mobile, I can’t retrieve it. Sarreeh! But really, thank you Bonjing for the motivation gift – sketch pad & frame of mount apo of davao (before 2020 ang target, we’ll be there together!! Haha) Thank you Imyang & ada for the sling bag & sandal – believe it or not ate poch said “how did they know ur taste?!” so like I said then, ur just guessing! Hahahaha and of course to juan for my quaker oats! Yeay! 2 pax so the pressure is so ON! Haha I love the face towel and spoon, that will be used while eating my oats hahaha charot!

THANK YOU again my loved ones – you’ve been a great part of me & I mean it what I have told you all – you were one of those friends, I wanted to grow up with, to cry and laugh with, to have simple conversations late at night, to drink coffee together as well you know the other way around hahaha You all are the best thing that has ever happened to me in the year 2014 and looking forward this year for travels, adventures and more laughter & bloopers. 

Isipin niyong blogger pa kayo...

My 4^th year in Christmas blogging although I have missed a lot doing the bloggers stuff. You know the picture greetings, exchange of comments because hey it’s vacation, right?! Just as when you received your greeting from your fellow bloggers, you’re too excited to create a blog post entry saying your way of “thank you’s!” OH! I totally missed that! Where are you all anyway!? Hahaha assuming naman ako eh ano? Kakabalik ko nga lang eh. Chos!

I do understand the “sabaw” moments, tinatamad, busy and simpleng pagod lang magblog. No excuses, nangyari na sa akin lahat ang yan but I am still trying so hard now to be consistent sa pagbablog, (huh!) we’ll see it through.

There are new faces in blogging, even those new members sa PBO, ang dami! I can’t catch up anymore. I’m sorry. Hihihi Anyareh?! Achus! Hihihi Sana ang PBO matuloy ang sinimulan, sayang kasi eh, andyan na yan, konting kembot nalang oh! Wooott. I never heard any activity kasi or sadyang nganga lang ako dahil hindi ko nakita ang update ng PBO hahaha pasensya! Pigilan niyo ako muna for a while? Ples?! Hahaha honestly, ang dami ko ng hindi kilala sa PBO, I may not be one of the founders neither the first batch of members but I’ve seen PBO from the start, it really grew and OH MY! Geed!! Ang laki ng potential! My future! Wwwooott! I’m very sure naman ang mga bagong batch of members now sa PBO, also have the heart to extend their passion beyond blogging or writing. I welcome you all, hindi ko man kayo kilala for now, pasensya, I’ll give enough time to wander around. Hahaha  I just missed a lot of events sa PBO and half ng buhay ko, I regret that! Hahahaha bakit ba kasi ang layo ko sa Luzon!! Hahaha kaloka naman kasi!

I am not yet ready to close my 2014, eh! Kasi I’m still thinking! Hahaha I’m thinking ano bang nabigay ni 2014 sa akin. Hehehe as far as I could remember, it’s all worth it naman, even if sa simula ng taong 2014, saktong January, hindi ganon kaganda pero hindi naman naubos ni 2014 ang bad na nangyari, mas madami pa rin ang good things na nangyari, syempre! Wwoot! Kailangan! Dapat positive tayo no matter what! Hahaha kahit nadapa ka man siguro, isipin mo nalang na yes! Nadapa ako, at may dahilan yan at hindi dahil sa katangahan lang yon! Hahaha

Oh again! I am hitting you sa blog na ito, bumalik na kayo! Utang na loob naman! Ang tahimik sa blogsphere! Hahaha 

Hindi ba kayo gagawa ng bago nito? hahaha  mas masaya na ngayon kasi ang dami na natin pala hahaha buhis buhay ang paghahanap ko sa picture na ito! hahaha 

This is think was 2012 if im not mistaken. wwwooottt.
 payat pa ako kasi! charot! hahahaha

Rub that alcohol more

Under the influence of rubbing alcohol. Lol

Weeee. Woot. I think I am going to burst this out personally or might as well just slip it over a couple of glasses. You know what I mean, I am very good & confident in telling the truth but I just couldn’t say it right to your face. There are hundreds of thoughts exchanged, thousands of word expressed but the truth about you & me, I just find it so hard to tell, so complicated even.

When I let you go that moment, I know that was the best thing I could do. I am following my dreams as you also did. It’s been years I think. I almost forgot what we were, what we had. Life just change so fast. I can’t even remember the last time I said I am going to wait. I am not the same anymore, I am not the person you used to know. I am happy of what I have become, this is not about you after all, I became who I am today because this is what & where I want to be. I forgot the feeling of being cared & loved by someone, or maybe I just ignored that anyway.

Wtf! I wanted to finally divulge this blogsite, for you to know what I’ve been in my life, do you really care? Coz now, I don’t anymore. A few rounds of glasses, this made me stupid, thinking & deciding probably. I am on my way now of starting a new path, my head is telling me that I want you to ride & take a journey together but this amazes me because you know what, my heart doesn’t want to anymore, I swear! I can’t find you in there & I am very happy of this discovery. This is I think – FAIR enough though.

I just love what I have right now & whom I am with – my family & friends, that is. This is the first & last time I am going to share what I had with you in the past. I just couldn’t do it anymore. The fuck it is! Lol but that’s the truth. I can’t deal it. I can’t fight it. My heart belongs to someone I think – that! I never meet it, yet or I may be I met him already but isn’t yet our time. This is the only thing I knew, you’ve seen my worst & supposedly you deserve my best but I just couldn’t afford it anymore to share what I’ve got now & what I think the best I could give. I just simply don’t find you anywhere anymore. I can finally say this, I am closing a chapter of my life where you were there. Thank you, that’s all I can say.

P.S.

Christmas beers are not advisable! Lol

Sniff pa! Singhot pa more!

I’ve realized something today, definitely YES! I know I’m going to regret it for the next five years!?! Yeah! 5 years! Wtf! Ain’t?! I was looking at my old passport and then there boom! Yeyeeh! I looked like a drug addict & a pusher! Hahaha I went to dfa today and one hell of a day almost ang hinugot ko and I am trying to convince myself that moment that YES finally! Oh! This is my chance to at least improve my picture and be happy for the next five years again!?! Ek..ek..klavu processing… wwoooottt!! Anak ni darna kung meron man yan! Pls wag ng ibigay ang bato! Futeks!! If I look like a drug addict nong old passport ko wow! Kumusta naman ang new passport ko, I look like now a drug lord! Wtf! Right?! Shit eh! Hahahahahaa I just couldn’t move on for a while until now! Holy crap! Holy ninja!!! Wala na akong magawa! So keber na sa mga ninja titingin ng passport ko!

Just right after my dfa appointment, I finally got my planner, an early present from teacher kat. Wwwoooottt.. kendeng, kendeng, galaw galaw para hindi mastroke ang taba! Chos! Hahaha Thanks teacher kat for this & it was so sweet and thoughtful of you. I’ll keep in mind that wish, not just for me or you but sa atin yon dalawa! Hahaha wwooott! He will come in the most perfect time and unexpected place. Charrrooottt sa ating dalawa! Hahahaha Cross my fingers that mapuno ko itong planner na ito with God's grace for the year 2015!! 

Humanda ang 2015 ko nito!
AYAN OH! bday ko! haha

Ang sweet ni teacher kat kasing
 sweet ng pusa niya haha

I just love my day totally! Lalo na having a 3 hour straight random conversation with a dear friend! Wwoott! Like imyang said “ate it’s been a while we talked serious stuff!” chos! Hahaha oo! Kasi ngayon we can’t have any proper conversation kasi may bonjing na kami at isang nognog so wwweezz chance puro nalang kalokohan! That’s what this big four do most of the time! Ayey!  

"imyang"
May ganyan! feeling
sensitive case lang ito! lol

"Si nognog at bonjing"
bentang benta ang dalawang ito kaya
para iwas gulo na, tinakpan ang
kalahati ng mukha! chos! 

ang happy signpen na
ballpen ko! haha

Ang babaw ko lang then pag-uwi ko, no joke, I was looking for an old notebook of mine nong nag-aaral pa ako and guess what I’ve found, yes! My ballpen na signpen din! Hahaha natuwa ako! Shit lang! wwwooott! I’ve been looking for this kasi ang alam ko talaga may ganito akong pen eh, kaso nawala so ito na nakita ko na! hahaha

Ay last, this is for a friend, a long time friend who is currently in Japan – like I said, hold on to whatever you are going through, just remember that you always have us, you have a home when you get back soon & we will always be your wings in case you’ll be losing some of your feathers.

Life is so real & beautiful if we just learn to appreciate the small things & acknowledge those people na minsan natulungan ka at andon sila sa moment you have nothing! Thank you & hoping one day I will be given the chance to share also my gratitude to others! (natatakot talaga ako kapag nagiging so seryos ang ending kasi ito na nga ang signs na guguho na ang mundo charrooottt lang! hahaha) wwooottt. tambling tambling ikot ikot and splleettttsss. wooottt.

Yccos "Meow" visits "Telelalahbells"

I need to debrief myself immediately. Chos!!! Haha

The 100k painting -
mas malaki pa kai
teacher kat lol

One of the PBO’s (Pinoy Bloggers Outreach) attractive (and active) member especially by means of smallness & prettiness ( LOL ) came to Cagayan de Oro City unexpectedly. All the way from Quezon City transferred to Taguig City, Metro Manila accordingly (drum roll please), 2_ (I intentionally not to put a number next to 2! Haha), 5’ FLAT? (wooottt! Alam na!) & proud to be a bekeey! Presenting Ms. Kat a.k.a “meow” slash “yccos” (I’m seryos, pilit na pilit akong maging seryos! Chos! Hahaha)

I’m very happy indeed! Yeyy!! In such short notice & time, we still manage to make our weekend a worth to remember. That is not also possible without the help of my friends – Peps (wag ng alamin ang totoong pangalan ng taong ito dahil babalik tayo sa panahon ng spanyol haha) , Imee “Imyang” (dahil mas matanda pa sa akin ito kumilos, madalas may dalang panghilod ito kahit san magpunta) and Juan in tagalog John in English (pinaghandaan niya ang BANAT statement na yan para kay “Kat” dahil sa Filipino subject lang nagsasalita ng tagalog mga tao dito samin! so OA lang ang sinabi ko! Hahaha) siniraan ko talaga mga kaibigan ko eh! Nyahahahaha soreh! Soreh!

Syempre selfie - nakiuso

Our day started with sumakay kami ng “motorela” (only in cdo yan! Rooowww!!) & had a pambansang breakfast at “jabebey!” hahaha ohh yes! Of course we then visited first the Cagayan de Oro City Cathedral to pray & went to Xavier University after – hindi kami nakapasok kasi nakapekpek shorts si “kat” hahahaha akalain mo yon?! Conservative masyado kami dito eh!! Charot lang! hahaha something came up may konting emergency so pumunta kami sa lugar nila peps then went straight after to Provincial Capitol where I used to work for 7 years & may malaking sculpture kung saan masayang tingnan si kat na pilit niya itong yakapin ng buo! (hahaha) dahil sa sobrang init – sa isang mall pa din ending namin at we had our coffee sa starbucks. (mainit na kape inorder namin, parang hindi din kami nakaligtas sa init ng panahon! Haha). Our lunch was at Bucher’s Best (dito may 14 php pa na bbq).

Earthquake

I love this pic! EcoVillage!

Just as exactly 1 pm we decided to go to Capitol University Museum (kung san andon ang history ng Cdo), touristang tourista lang kami eh kasi first time ko rin pumunta don ano! (bahahaha) sa next destination namin of course not just once but ohh yes! 2^nd time kong pumunta don! (feeling proud hahaha) 15 mins away from the City, sumakay kami ng jeep at “habal-habal” papuntang “ECO VILLAGE” nakuh! Lakas maka-earthquake ang lugar na ito! Masarap kasi magjumpshot dito! Haha it’s all pure nature! Sarap! Masarap yong pababa pero nong pabalik na, yong butas ng ilong ko kasing laki ng kamao ni pacman na! one of the best thing happened nong pauwi na kami – hinamon nila akong mag limbo rock nong palabas na kami (naka-inclined na ito) gustohin ko man pero feeling ko maging bola ako na pagulong-gulong pag nagkamali ako ohhh dibah! Nasa isip ko pa lang, may nangyari na kay “Juan in English John” tumambling lang naman siya oh see kumusta naman kung ako yon! Susmaryusep!! Maawa ako sa daan! Hahahaha after “Eco Village” went straight to “limketkai mall” (kapag cdo – LKK Mall ang trademark! Only in cdo lang yan talaga) & back to Imee’s “Imyang’s” dorm to get kat’s bag & stayed Jollibee nearby for a while at pumunta na kami straight sa 2^nd home ko para don magstay overnight – sa bahay nila peps. Hahaha

Boystown Outreach

Saturday night we prepared the hygiene kits for the outreach kinabukasan. Thanks to PEPS sa lahat dahil he allowed us to be part of his Org for a day! (I can’t thank u enough really, wwooott!) the following day pumunta kami sa “Boystown” ng Cdo located away from the city, mga 1 hour din yong binyahe namin with all the rough road along & free natural powder! Oh diba bongga! Hahaha I am very happy dahil may malaking part si Kat during our outreach dahil we let her interact with the kids as well as nagconduct din siya ng activity sa mga bata. Fulfilling! kaso bitin lang! Right after our outreach, dahil maaga natapos I called a friend who is just nearby para kumain ng French fries at beefsteak! Hahaha she’s a friend for almost 15 years din kaya at home na rin ako sa bahay nila! Chos! Ang layo din naman ng nilakad namin ano (super init pa!), tunaw na tunaw yong taba ko don! Effortless!

After Outreach -
Yccos with the Big Four

Exactly 12 noon kami umalis sa bahay ng friend ko and dumating kami downtown mga 1 na siguro yon, kumain ng sundae all from Mcdonalds dahil SUNdaey! Haha just waited for Pep’s sister for a while naiwan yong tablet ni kat sa bahay nila Peps. Parang ayokong tapusin tong entry nato kasi alam ng uwian na eh! Hahaha charowt! Hinatid namin si Kat sa LKK Mall kung saan don siya sasakay ng Van going to the airport, that’s around 2:30 na siguro, had few group pictures and ayon na ba-bye na talaga! Haaaiiizzz! Lol There’s no goodbye but see you again soon!! That is!!! Yeey!!

GRACE - Our fries & beef steak

For a day & a half na kasama ko si Teacher Kat “yccos” ito lang masabi ko – may katapat ako!!!! Hahaha she’s bubbly & a positive thinker! What I admired the most yong pagiging flexible niya (knowing I also have my friends with me during her visit) AT ito pa – ang talino ha in fairness hindi ko carry yong history ng pinas, wala nga akong matanong don eh! (tulog ako nong kinuha ko ang subject na yan! Hahaha) I hate being so big sa mga pictures namin kasi ang liit niya!! Literal! Hahahahaha the best I could describe KAT - “NO PRETENTIONS!!!” what you see, what you’ve read is what you get!!! Yes!! It is!!

MecMec - Pep's Home

It was a worth weekend!!! Thank you teacher kat for the visit & next time ulet!! Wooott!!! I can’t thank enough also to Pep’s Family – Tita slash Mama Merelyn & ang pangarap kong katawan sa hilaw kong kapatid na si MecMec, na always ready and on the GO!!! Of course si Juan in English it’s JOHN – official icebreaker!!! Imee slash Imyang as well as our official photographer all throughout!!! Hahaha I LOVE YOU Guys!! (wid feelings, CAPSLOCK para intense!! Hahaha)

Putok putok bawat taon

Just like I said in my previous entry, I would like to share pano ako nag-acrobat at mala break down sa buhay ko bago ako pumasok sa mundo ng social service. Charottts lang! may history talaga? Cheess! Hahaha

Nong unang sabak ko sa college, I took up Architecture and waalleey hindi ako nag-apprenticeship ng 2 years (naabotan ako ng bagong law at that time na magtake ng 2 years bago magtake ng board exam, pakershets! Hahaha) HINDI ko na kaya kasi nastress at I was totally lost. (yooowwwn oh! Haha charms! Hahaha)

2006 – napasok ako sa isang government agency, 7 years din naman ako

2011 – ng April nitong taon, I lost my mother, she died of complication

2011 – ng June naman nito, I decided to enrol Social Work para sundan ang yapak ng nanay ko. ARAL TRABAHO ang drama ko dito! hahaha

2013 – I had my practicum sa rehabilitation center for rape survivors & I was also a community organizer in one municipality in our province

2014 – ng march nito natapos ko na

2014 – by april naman, shonga shonga nako, nagboard review kami, hirap walang facebook, walang blog, wala lahat hahaha

2014 – ng may naman, juice colored, I made a personal review schedule and binigay ko ang katawan ko, kaluluwa, isip at puso ko at itong kapatid ko sasabihan lang akong >>> “papasa kaba? Nagrereview kaba?” (dahil nahuhuli niya akong nanunuod ng juan for all, all for one! Hahaha)

WOW ha sa isip ko! Wala ng natira sakin, walang wala na talaga, nasusuka na ako sa 10 hours a day na sched ko! Hahahaha paakkeeng tapes!!!

Ito na, ito na, sayaw sa left, sayaw sa right, tumbling two times at spleeetttt sabay utot sa bibig! Hahahaha

2014 – ng JUNE 29 & 30 ayan na board exam na namin!

2 days after, I got the result, sssssooooosss!!

Halos lahat ng santo, nakilala na namin, kung san-saan kami napupunta, may aakyat kami ng medyo slight na bundok, sasakay ng habal-habal, tatawid ng 9 ilog para mapuntahan ang mga secret helper natin sa buhay.

After the first day ng board exam, I saw a moth malapit sa kitchen, that’s where I said to myself na, papasa ako! yon ang sign!

YES! It is, after 2 days, finally nakita ko na rin yong name ko and now I can officially practice social work and defend disadvantages people around us.

Sa ngayon, nagpapahinga ako (kasi ala pa akong trabaho! Hahaha) but I am waiting sa appointment ko nalang sa isang national agency. Pero if ako ang tatanongin, gusto ko pa rin magtrabaho sa UNICEF. In God’s time and will. 

Haayysss, gusto ko ng pasokin ang mundo ng Law. hahaha 

You, just made a difference!

All of a sudden, I remembered I still have this, my blog! Woooootttt.. the last time I had an update was January 11, 2014, kumusta  naman?!! (spleeett! Haha)

For 3 months, oh my God! Rroooowwwttss!!!

A lot of things happened and I guess some of you knew it through my facebook account. To the left, to the right, forward, backward ang requirements ko for my final year. Really. I don’t want to elaborate that because I don’t want to bore you at all. Charr!!!

So much to that, I just wanted to say thank you to PBO members and especially Mommy joy. You guys will always be part of my success in life. I am glad that along my journey, I have met you all. My special mention to my very very best buddy online blogger, si feyel! Yes si feyel! Those times that nobody knows how down I was during the compilation of requirements that something came up, he was there to brighten up my day, to lighten up the heavy heart and never get tired of listening to my stupid woes. (at ang very best goal now din is we will have a picture of us!! to justify why we are best buds online!! charroottss!! hahahaha) I am tough, I am strong but even how strong I am, minsan nagbbreakdown ako, simply because I am just a human too.  Yes hindi ako hayop, tao ako! Lol echus!

On serious note, I made you all as my inspiration to aspire more in life, to believe that dreams come true one day, to this, I know I can extend more of my time and life to those who are in need. Honestly, I just don’t want to do that, what I really want is to make a big unique difference to everybody.  Something that I can be their inspiration in getting their dreams, to believe as well that dreams are not just dreams, they are made to happen.  Thank you once again for the small and big things, those simple laughs, thoughts and little hi’s and hello’s, you are making a difference in my life. Thank you guys.

I got it! I made it! One chapter ends and another is ready to open! Hello Social Work Board Review!

Above all, Thank you God for leading me to my purpose in life. Becoming an architect is not my destination; indeed becoming a Registered Social Worker is my call. 

sa E.R ang totoong drama ng buhay

Dahil malamig ang panahon, ayokong magpainit ng post hahaha

I just wanted to say something bago ako mag-acrobat sa blog kong ito and even sa buhay ko!

After 2 weeks’ vacation, (December 21, 2013 to January 5, 2014) yong vacation na finally nasabi kong, I spent it to myself, my family and GOD! Yes, I brought back my life to him. I have my faith of course, I believe in him, I really do but those were the times I came to realize that life is too short to waste in pity things. I am not a person who is prayerful, goes to church every Sunday but with that 2 weeks’ vacation, I am happy with the change!

This is one of the few conversations I had with my sister after she had her night duty. Having a coffee in the morning and talk random things ay isa sa pinaka magandang moment masabi kong I have time with my family, finally! (been feeling so busy kasi ang buhay ko for the past years! Charot lang yon! hahaha)

So much for that, ito kasi ang sabi niya na nakapagisip ako ng bongga talaga! “kapag namatay ang tao, kahit piso wala kang madadala…” my sister was assigned in the emergency room sa isang tertiary hospital dito sa amin. I just can’t believe sinasabi niya sa amin na siya yong nagpipikit ng mata nong patiente na namamatay sa E.R kapag ito ay nakadilat, dagdagan pa yong magtatanggal ng IV’s sa katawan nong pasyente. And doon ako mas natinag when she told us na kahit patay na yong tao, she make it sure na maayos yong pagtanngal ng mga IV’s at kahit patay na she still take care of it like buhay pa so the immediate family or relatives would feel na inasikaso naman yong pasyente kahit public hospital man.

That conversation made me realize a lot of things in life. I looked back and ponder what have I done in the past years of my life, tama rin ba kaya yong mga nagawa ko nong nasa work pa ako, may natulongan ba ako talaga or baka nasaktan ko lang yong iba. I learned to be humble enough now and mas naging mahaba ang patience ko this time dahil kailangan kong hindi na patulan ang mga taong makitid ang utak na walang ginawa kundi pagusapan ang ibang tao to the point na lulunorin mo na yong tao at tatanggalan ng ulo. NOW, I just love praying over them and show my success along.

Mas narealize ko now na ang dami kong sinayang na oras, pero I still have hope na may mga about 30 years pa ako kung hindi ako mahihigh blood sa sobrang pigil sa galit minsan! Hahaha kaya I am proud and happy I turn myself back to God, as in having a relationship with him made me feel that I can do all things that are impossible because with him, alam natin everything is possible!

oh  yes, glad at nakasama pala din ako sa Black Nazarene na prosisyon, i felt so loved. Really. it was also my first time to join. 

Take note, it doesn’t mean na feeling banal ako sa post kong ‘to eh hindi na ako magiingay sa mga bahay niyo. This is just the spiritual side of me lang naman, meron pang social, emotional, physical aspect pa naman! Hahahaha

Sa next post ulit. Totoo na ito for this year! Hahaha

Telebunot emosyon

Dahil masakit pa rin ang ipin ko until now, tumigil ako sa ginagawa kong paper works. Isipin nalang walang effect ang dolfenal na yan sa ngipin ko pero ang coated peanut perfect na perfect na gamot sa ipin ko pansamantala. Naubosan ako ng coated peanut kaya sumakit na naman yong ngipin ko. I told mah self na kailangan ko nga talagang kumain ng walang tigil para hindi na sasakit yong ngipin ko hahahaha

Well dahil masakit ang ngipin ko, feel kong mag-emote. Charots lang! I hope this post hindi ko mapagusapan ang work slash practicum hahaha

Don’t worry hindi naman ako titigil sa pagbablog. Kapag gagawin ko yon baka makalimutan nako ng mga fans ko. rooooottts carrooottss hahahaha 

Seriously ha, on the other side of me, I feel so free. Parang carefree napkin lang ata yon ha. Bwahahaha I felt free knowing that in time, everything is back to normal. I found myself once again (parang nasiraan ako ng bait sa statement ko na ito ha hahahaha) yes, it feels like na-refresh ako, na-reconnect and as well as I learned to live my life everyday as if it’s my last day. I cried once, twice and even over again but because of those pains in the past, I used that to be strong enough to endure all the pains that will come along my way.  Ang sarap magconnect sa nature kasi fresh na fresh ang feeling lang. lol

I think my heart for the last couple of months is completely ready for another try BUT! The problem is ang dumating, hindi ko gusto. I just discovered that bago ako pumunta ng Bukidnon. iba kasi kami ng paniniwala sa buhay. Kahit anong pilit or try, ayaw talaga eh. I know somehow I have hurt him in a way na kahit siya he knows I don’t like him. basta I know darating at darating din yong fair ang lahat, gusto ko siya at gusto niya ako. Charrooottss!! Hahahaha ay basta ayan kasi natuloyan na akong mag-emote hahaha

Basta I am just thankful that I have a new life. Maybe mas konti nalang ang time now para magemote, hahaha dapat laging masaya dahil hindi natin alam kung hanggang kalian lang tayo dito sa mundo. 

Kahit anong daldal ko pa dito, still masakit pa rin ang ngipin ko hahaha (in short, I made this an excuse now to eat again hahaha)

Everyday may not be good...

I will be serious with my post maybe, hoping and let’s just see. Hehehe anyways, maybe I am just so tired today, nakakabadtrip yong schedule sa graduation pictorial and duh?! Hindi kasi porket kayo ang madaming population sa school kaya pinagbibigyan kayo, dahil ano? Kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera? Ganon? Ohhh well, so kung kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera, ano naman kami? Kami ang nagbibigay ng magandang record ng school for the last 5 years and because of that rising ang number of students ng mga social work ngayon. Charroootts. Anyways, bahala na kayo. Hahaha I’m just tired today siguro, waited for almost 7 hours para sa graduation pictorial na yan. Basta all I know, tapos na, success ang pictorial kahit mukhang ice cream na natutunaw yong mga make-up namin.

Sooooo…. Ammmm… baaannggg… baaamm…

Malapit na ako matapos sa practicum so that means, may ilang araw lang siguro ako makakapagpahinga. Actually natapos ko na ang 500 hours required but I still have requirements to finish pa. another 500 hours again this second sem. Ohh life, ohh sunshine talaga magpakita kana. Echhenng!!

I will be at the center bukas, busy busyhan kami sa upcoming activity ng mga bata, their family day. there were times I look back and naisip ko na oo nga ano hindi ako nakakapagblog nong start ng practicum ko dahil pag uwi ko sa gabi, I always felt so tired and talagang nakakatulog ako at sa umaga naman I have to rush dahil  may pasok ako sa umaga. Student life you know! Hahaha 

Lately lang ito, at naprove ko talaga na super nakakastress nga, I was making a case study of my client and itong client ko ay isa sa mga hard client, meaning may behavioral problem, mga paniniwala na possible oo possible namang hindi. Mahirap kasi nasa teenager na sya and may pag-iisip na talaga, independent though minsan may pagkaisip bata. I find it hard kasi aside from her behavioral problem, yong paniniwala niyang na-hypnotized siya kaya the sexual abuse happened, yes possible yon pero according to the community, it was a “kolto.” It is a religious na paniniwala ng lahat ok lang na gamitin ang isang babae dahil that way eh they will be saved sa araw ng judgment.

Guess what, halos 3 weeks akong nagisip pano ko tapusin ang case study ng batang yon. the night na ginawa ko na ang psychosocial and assessment ng bata, at natapos ako ng 2 am. As per routine ko, lagi kong pinapaalarm yong cellphone ko usually 6:00 am at 6:30am pero that day, hindi ako nagising. Seriously, ilang times na daw nag-alarm yong cellphone ko pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga narinig which is most of the time nagugulat ako kahit isang tunog pa lang. pero that moment, wala as in wala talaga. Doon ko naprove yong super stress ko, yong pagiisip lang about don sa case niya. Ganon kastressful kaya kahit anong kain ko pa, wala pa ren I still feel tired.

It’s good thing now, I chose not to think of requirements kaya ako nakakapagblog. At I swear bukas ng gabi, it’s Saturday night, I will free myself muna siguro from school, from the center, usapang barkada, magiinoman kami kasi ramdam na namin na wala na kaming time sa isa’t isa, stress pa sa buhay practicum hahahaha 

It will be a long day pa ren tomorrow since we will be meeting our center psychologist for the psychological test evaluation of the kids and to plan the banner of PBO supporting the family day of these girls credit to mommy joy. And Thank you very much also to Mommy joy (clink this to see her blog) for sharing her blessings to the girls and for imparting her life and heart to individuals especially in crisis. Thanks mommy joy, God may shower you more blessings, good health to your family and abundance of grace to everyone you love.