In those distress times of my life, I turn into blogging. I kept myself in silence, I pretend that everything is okay; I certainly believed that one day things will fall into its proper place. Blog has been a friend of mine for the last 3 to 4 years; there are sensitive issues in the past, family, personal, relationships, job and the like. I decided to re-arrange back my blog, dropped those pity issues and life has to start again as I go back to school and accept all the things that’s happening to me.
This is the turning point of my life where I am going to face it without my mom’s guidance this time. There are a lot of stories to tell, wisdom to share and experiences to be learned. As I will start my life being a student tomorrow, I know this will be the beginning of what I really wanted to be, what I should have been and the only thing that I know now is that I will never repeat the same mistakes again; I will do more in everything that I will do.
There are just a lot of reasons why things happen this way, I may not know why now but maybe later, I hope. There are still things I don’t understand, there are still situations I can’t accept, I tried to be strong in all the circumstances that comes my way but my strength is not enough still.
I am excited for the first day of class; the class that I know will hurt me at the same time because it will always remind me of my mom. Her memories will forever remain in my heart, her wisdom, her commitment to her profession where I know I will have it the same in the future.