Sniff pa! Singhot pa more!

I’ve realized something today, definitely YES! I know I’m going to regret it for the next five years!?! Yeah! 5 years! Wtf! Ain’t?! I was looking at my old passport and then there boom! Yeyeeh! I looked like a drug addict & a pusher! Hahaha I went to dfa today and one hell of a day almost ang hinugot ko and I am trying to convince myself that moment that YES finally! Oh! This is my chance to at least improve my picture and be happy for the next five years again!?! Ek..ek..klavu processing… wwoooottt!! Anak ni darna kung meron man yan! Pls wag ng ibigay ang bato! Futeks!! If I look like a drug addict nong old passport ko wow! Kumusta naman ang new passport ko, I look like now a drug lord! Wtf! Right?! Shit eh! Hahahahahaa I just couldn’t move on for a while until now! Holy crap! Holy ninja!!! Wala na akong magawa! So keber na sa mga ninja titingin ng passport ko!

Just right after my dfa appointment, I finally got my planner, an early present from teacher kat. Wwwoooottt.. kendeng, kendeng, galaw galaw para hindi mastroke ang taba! Chos! Hahaha Thanks teacher kat for this & it was so sweet and thoughtful of you. I’ll keep in mind that wish, not just for me or you but sa atin yon dalawa! Hahaha wwooott! He will come in the most perfect time and unexpected place. Charrrooottt sa ating dalawa! Hahahaha Cross my fingers that mapuno ko itong planner na ito with God's grace for the year 2015!! 

Humanda ang 2015 ko nito!
AYAN OH! bday ko! haha

Ang sweet ni teacher kat kasing
 sweet ng pusa niya haha

I just love my day totally! Lalo na having a 3 hour straight random conversation with a dear friend! Wwoott! Like imyang said “ate it’s been a while we talked serious stuff!” chos! Hahaha oo! Kasi ngayon we can’t have any proper conversation kasi may bonjing na kami at isang nognog so wwweezz chance puro nalang kalokohan! That’s what this big four do most of the time! Ayey!  

"imyang"
May ganyan! feeling
sensitive case lang ito! lol

"Si nognog at bonjing"
bentang benta ang dalawang ito kaya
para iwas gulo na, tinakpan ang
kalahati ng mukha! chos! 

ang happy signpen na
ballpen ko! haha

Ang babaw ko lang then pag-uwi ko, no joke, I was looking for an old notebook of mine nong nag-aaral pa ako and guess what I’ve found, yes! My ballpen na signpen din! Hahaha natuwa ako! Shit lang! wwwooott! I’ve been looking for this kasi ang alam ko talaga may ganito akong pen eh, kaso nawala so ito na nakita ko na! hahaha

Ay last, this is for a friend, a long time friend who is currently in Japan – like I said, hold on to whatever you are going through, just remember that you always have us, you have a home when you get back soon & we will always be your wings in case you’ll be losing some of your feathers.

Life is so real & beautiful if we just learn to appreciate the small things & acknowledge those people na minsan natulungan ka at andon sila sa moment you have nothing! Thank you & hoping one day I will be given the chance to share also my gratitude to others! (natatakot talaga ako kapag nagiging so seryos ang ending kasi ito na nga ang signs na guguho na ang mundo charrooottt lang! hahaha) wwooottt. tambling tambling ikot ikot and splleettttsss. wooottt.

Everyday may not be good...

I will be serious with my post maybe, hoping and let’s just see. Hehehe anyways, maybe I am just so tired today, nakakabadtrip yong schedule sa graduation pictorial and duh?! Hindi kasi porket kayo ang madaming population sa school kaya pinagbibigyan kayo, dahil ano? Kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera? Ganon? Ohhh well, so kung kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera, ano naman kami? Kami ang nagbibigay ng magandang record ng school for the last 5 years and because of that rising ang number of students ng mga social work ngayon. Charroootts. Anyways, bahala na kayo. Hahaha I’m just tired today siguro, waited for almost 7 hours para sa graduation pictorial na yan. Basta all I know, tapos na, success ang pictorial kahit mukhang ice cream na natutunaw yong mga make-up namin.

Sooooo…. Ammmm… baaannggg… baaamm…

Malapit na ako matapos sa practicum so that means, may ilang araw lang siguro ako makakapagpahinga. Actually natapos ko na ang 500 hours required but I still have requirements to finish pa. another 500 hours again this second sem. Ohh life, ohh sunshine talaga magpakita kana. Echhenng!!

I will be at the center bukas, busy busyhan kami sa upcoming activity ng mga bata, their family day. there were times I look back and naisip ko na oo nga ano hindi ako nakakapagblog nong start ng practicum ko dahil pag uwi ko sa gabi, I always felt so tired and talagang nakakatulog ako at sa umaga naman I have to rush dahil  may pasok ako sa umaga. Student life you know! Hahaha 

Lately lang ito, at naprove ko talaga na super nakakastress nga, I was making a case study of my client and itong client ko ay isa sa mga hard client, meaning may behavioral problem, mga paniniwala na possible oo possible namang hindi. Mahirap kasi nasa teenager na sya and may pag-iisip na talaga, independent though minsan may pagkaisip bata. I find it hard kasi aside from her behavioral problem, yong paniniwala niyang na-hypnotized siya kaya the sexual abuse happened, yes possible yon pero according to the community, it was a “kolto.” It is a religious na paniniwala ng lahat ok lang na gamitin ang isang babae dahil that way eh they will be saved sa araw ng judgment.

Guess what, halos 3 weeks akong nagisip pano ko tapusin ang case study ng batang yon. the night na ginawa ko na ang psychosocial and assessment ng bata, at natapos ako ng 2 am. As per routine ko, lagi kong pinapaalarm yong cellphone ko usually 6:00 am at 6:30am pero that day, hindi ako nagising. Seriously, ilang times na daw nag-alarm yong cellphone ko pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga narinig which is most of the time nagugulat ako kahit isang tunog pa lang. pero that moment, wala as in wala talaga. Doon ko naprove yong super stress ko, yong pagiisip lang about don sa case niya. Ganon kastressful kaya kahit anong kain ko pa, wala pa ren I still feel tired.

It’s good thing now, I chose not to think of requirements kaya ako nakakapagblog. At I swear bukas ng gabi, it’s Saturday night, I will free myself muna siguro from school, from the center, usapang barkada, magiinoman kami kasi ramdam na namin na wala na kaming time sa isa’t isa, stress pa sa buhay practicum hahahaha 

It will be a long day pa ren tomorrow since we will be meeting our center psychologist for the psychological test evaluation of the kids and to plan the banner of PBO supporting the family day of these girls credit to mommy joy. And Thank you very much also to Mommy joy (clink this to see her blog) for sharing her blessings to the girls and for imparting her life and heart to individuals especially in crisis. Thanks mommy joy, God may shower you more blessings, good health to your family and abundance of grace to everyone you love. 

That feeling you will never forget

Maniwala or hindi! Ang professor ko ay isang classmate ng nanay ko since 1^st year college until 4^th year sila! Tan-ena! bohahaha they are really good friends sabi nitong professor ko. Yeah, before he became my professor, I heard a lot already about him from my late mother. Almost 35 years since college day’s nila! Woo! Lahat ng sabi ng nanay ko, sinabi din ng professor ko, nyay! Sa harap pa ng buong klase! They don’t have any past, I know kasi I can read between the lines naman, so wala, wala naman akong narinig either.

I just couldn’t believe that all the things my mom did noon, inaani ko ang kabutihan niya today. This professor keeps telling everybody in the class that, yong nanay ko ang inu-utangan nila kapag wala silang pera kasi my mom is very lucky that time dahil yong tatay niya (lolo ko) eh president ng del monte Philippines before that’s why may kaya sila at ang nanay ko yata daw ang walang problema sa pera. I remember mom told me before that this professor I have now he will just eat “kamote” kasi wala pang pera na pinadala galing sa probinsya. Ngayon? Successful na siya sa profession niya, he managed almost 300 people I think in his department sa dswd. Would you believe that? At its always in my mind what my mom told me that this professor, nangongopya pa dati sa case studies nila just to submit requirements. It’s so funny kasi today everybody respects him, kinakatakotan at dekalidad na tao na si sir! Hahaha but si sir, he admitted to the class that when he was in college, yong mommy ko ang kinokopyahan nila! Tan-enas nuh!!

What happened to them way back in college, it happened the same with me today. It just so happened that I already have a job while studying again, that’s why yong mga classmates ko rin kapag gipit sila minsan, they would ask sa akin if I have spare. Anak talaga ako ng mommy ko! Hahaha I walked the same path she did!

This professor can’t stop saying good things to my mom kasi I know he is very grateful dahil sa oras ng kagipitan my mom was there for them to rescue and stayed with them sa hirap at ginhawa. I always feel that gratefulness and I am proud of what mom did to them. Tama ang sabi ni mommy that bilog ang mundo, dahil hindi all the time nasa baba ang isang tao, dahil nasa baba man siya ngayon, bukas nasa taas naman siya! ganon daw talaga ang buhay! and i stand to believe on that matter!

Pressure is in me now! Activated! Nganga ako nito!! I need to double time pa kasi kahit mom is not with us anymore, ayoko pa ring mapahiya ang mommy ko! Hahaha mataas ang expectation ng lahat tan-ena ang word na expectation! Nyay! Lels! Hahaha He is old now, almost 65 years old and about to retire that’s why he took the opportunity to teach in order to pass what he learned, no one follow his footstep kasi his daughter took the other road of success. When I told this professor, “I took up social work because I want to continue the legacy mom left us” and the only thing he said “dapat lang may susunod sa pamilya niyo!” (may slight tampo pa ang boses ni sir address to his daughters! Lels!) and if it’s possible to run fast to reach that goal, ginawa ko na! lels!