Rub that alcohol more

Under the influence of rubbing alcohol. Lol

Weeee. Woot. I think I am going to burst this out personally or might as well just slip it over a couple of glasses. You know what I mean, I am very good & confident in telling the truth but I just couldn’t say it right to your face. There are hundreds of thoughts exchanged, thousands of word expressed but the truth about you & me, I just find it so hard to tell, so complicated even.

When I let you go that moment, I know that was the best thing I could do. I am following my dreams as you also did. It’s been years I think. I almost forgot what we were, what we had. Life just change so fast. I can’t even remember the last time I said I am going to wait. I am not the same anymore, I am not the person you used to know. I am happy of what I have become, this is not about you after all, I became who I am today because this is what & where I want to be. I forgot the feeling of being cared & loved by someone, or maybe I just ignored that anyway.

Wtf! I wanted to finally divulge this blogsite, for you to know what I’ve been in my life, do you really care? Coz now, I don’t anymore. A few rounds of glasses, this made me stupid, thinking & deciding probably. I am on my way now of starting a new path, my head is telling me that I want you to ride & take a journey together but this amazes me because you know what, my heart doesn’t want to anymore, I swear! I can’t find you in there & I am very happy of this discovery. This is I think – FAIR enough though.

I just love what I have right now & whom I am with – my family & friends, that is. This is the first & last time I am going to share what I had with you in the past. I just couldn’t do it anymore. The fuck it is! Lol but that’s the truth. I can’t deal it. I can’t fight it. My heart belongs to someone I think – that! I never meet it, yet or I may be I met him already but isn’t yet our time. This is the only thing I knew, you’ve seen my worst & supposedly you deserve my best but I just couldn’t afford it anymore to share what I’ve got now & what I think the best I could give. I just simply don’t find you anywhere anymore. I can finally say this, I am closing a chapter of my life where you were there. Thank you, that’s all I can say.

P.S.

Christmas beers are not advisable! Lol

Yccos "Meow" visits "Telelalahbells"

I need to debrief myself immediately. Chos!!! Haha

The 100k painting -
mas malaki pa kai
teacher kat lol

One of the PBO’s (Pinoy Bloggers Outreach) attractive (and active) member especially by means of smallness & prettiness ( LOL ) came to Cagayan de Oro City unexpectedly. All the way from Quezon City transferred to Taguig City, Metro Manila accordingly (drum roll please), 2_ (I intentionally not to put a number next to 2! Haha), 5’ FLAT? (wooottt! Alam na!) & proud to be a bekeey! Presenting Ms. Kat a.k.a “meow” slash “yccos” (I’m seryos, pilit na pilit akong maging seryos! Chos! Hahaha)

I’m very happy indeed! Yeyy!! In such short notice & time, we still manage to make our weekend a worth to remember. That is not also possible without the help of my friends – Peps (wag ng alamin ang totoong pangalan ng taong ito dahil babalik tayo sa panahon ng spanyol haha) , Imee “Imyang” (dahil mas matanda pa sa akin ito kumilos, madalas may dalang panghilod ito kahit san magpunta) and Juan in tagalog John in English (pinaghandaan niya ang BANAT statement na yan para kay “Kat” dahil sa Filipino subject lang nagsasalita ng tagalog mga tao dito samin! so OA lang ang sinabi ko! Hahaha) siniraan ko talaga mga kaibigan ko eh! Nyahahahaha soreh! Soreh!

Syempre selfie - nakiuso

Our day started with sumakay kami ng “motorela” (only in cdo yan! Rooowww!!) & had a pambansang breakfast at “jabebey!” hahaha ohh yes! Of course we then visited first the Cagayan de Oro City Cathedral to pray & went to Xavier University after – hindi kami nakapasok kasi nakapekpek shorts si “kat” hahahaha akalain mo yon?! Conservative masyado kami dito eh!! Charot lang! hahaha something came up may konting emergency so pumunta kami sa lugar nila peps then went straight after to Provincial Capitol where I used to work for 7 years & may malaking sculpture kung saan masayang tingnan si kat na pilit niya itong yakapin ng buo! (hahaha) dahil sa sobrang init – sa isang mall pa din ending namin at we had our coffee sa starbucks. (mainit na kape inorder namin, parang hindi din kami nakaligtas sa init ng panahon! Haha). Our lunch was at Bucher’s Best (dito may 14 php pa na bbq).

Earthquake

I love this pic! EcoVillage!

Just as exactly 1 pm we decided to go to Capitol University Museum (kung san andon ang history ng Cdo), touristang tourista lang kami eh kasi first time ko rin pumunta don ano! (bahahaha) sa next destination namin of course not just once but ohh yes! 2^nd time kong pumunta don! (feeling proud hahaha) 15 mins away from the City, sumakay kami ng jeep at “habal-habal” papuntang “ECO VILLAGE” nakuh! Lakas maka-earthquake ang lugar na ito! Masarap kasi magjumpshot dito! Haha it’s all pure nature! Sarap! Masarap yong pababa pero nong pabalik na, yong butas ng ilong ko kasing laki ng kamao ni pacman na! one of the best thing happened nong pauwi na kami – hinamon nila akong mag limbo rock nong palabas na kami (naka-inclined na ito) gustohin ko man pero feeling ko maging bola ako na pagulong-gulong pag nagkamali ako ohhh dibah! Nasa isip ko pa lang, may nangyari na kay “Juan in English John” tumambling lang naman siya oh see kumusta naman kung ako yon! Susmaryusep!! Maawa ako sa daan! Hahahaha after “Eco Village” went straight to “limketkai mall” (kapag cdo – LKK Mall ang trademark! Only in cdo lang yan talaga) & back to Imee’s “Imyang’s” dorm to get kat’s bag & stayed Jollibee nearby for a while at pumunta na kami straight sa 2^nd home ko para don magstay overnight – sa bahay nila peps. Hahaha

Boystown Outreach

Saturday night we prepared the hygiene kits for the outreach kinabukasan. Thanks to PEPS sa lahat dahil he allowed us to be part of his Org for a day! (I can’t thank u enough really, wwooott!) the following day pumunta kami sa “Boystown” ng Cdo located away from the city, mga 1 hour din yong binyahe namin with all the rough road along & free natural powder! Oh diba bongga! Hahaha I am very happy dahil may malaking part si Kat during our outreach dahil we let her interact with the kids as well as nagconduct din siya ng activity sa mga bata. Fulfilling! kaso bitin lang! Right after our outreach, dahil maaga natapos I called a friend who is just nearby para kumain ng French fries at beefsteak! Hahaha she’s a friend for almost 15 years din kaya at home na rin ako sa bahay nila! Chos! Ang layo din naman ng nilakad namin ano (super init pa!), tunaw na tunaw yong taba ko don! Effortless!

After Outreach -
Yccos with the Big Four

Exactly 12 noon kami umalis sa bahay ng friend ko and dumating kami downtown mga 1 na siguro yon, kumain ng sundae all from Mcdonalds dahil SUNdaey! Haha just waited for Pep’s sister for a while naiwan yong tablet ni kat sa bahay nila Peps. Parang ayokong tapusin tong entry nato kasi alam ng uwian na eh! Hahaha charowt! Hinatid namin si Kat sa LKK Mall kung saan don siya sasakay ng Van going to the airport, that’s around 2:30 na siguro, had few group pictures and ayon na ba-bye na talaga! Haaaiiizzz! Lol There’s no goodbye but see you again soon!! That is!!! Yeey!!

GRACE - Our fries & beef steak

For a day & a half na kasama ko si Teacher Kat “yccos” ito lang masabi ko – may katapat ako!!!! Hahaha she’s bubbly & a positive thinker! What I admired the most yong pagiging flexible niya (knowing I also have my friends with me during her visit) AT ito pa – ang talino ha in fairness hindi ko carry yong history ng pinas, wala nga akong matanong don eh! (tulog ako nong kinuha ko ang subject na yan! Hahaha) I hate being so big sa mga pictures namin kasi ang liit niya!! Literal! Hahahahaha the best I could describe KAT - “NO PRETENTIONS!!!” what you see, what you’ve read is what you get!!! Yes!! It is!!

MecMec - Pep's Home

It was a worth weekend!!! Thank you teacher kat for the visit & next time ulet!! Wooott!!! I can’t thank enough also to Pep’s Family – Tita slash Mama Merelyn & ang pangarap kong katawan sa hilaw kong kapatid na si MecMec, na always ready and on the GO!!! Of course si Juan in English it’s JOHN – official icebreaker!!! Imee slash Imyang as well as our official photographer all throughout!!! Hahaha I LOVE YOU Guys!! (wid feelings, CAPSLOCK para intense!! Hahaha)

Putok putok bawat taon

Just like I said in my previous entry, I would like to share pano ako nag-acrobat at mala break down sa buhay ko bago ako pumasok sa mundo ng social service. Charottts lang! may history talaga? Cheess! Hahaha

Nong unang sabak ko sa college, I took up Architecture and waalleey hindi ako nag-apprenticeship ng 2 years (naabotan ako ng bagong law at that time na magtake ng 2 years bago magtake ng board exam, pakershets! Hahaha) HINDI ko na kaya kasi nastress at I was totally lost. (yooowwwn oh! Haha charms! Hahaha)

2006 – napasok ako sa isang government agency, 7 years din naman ako

2011 – ng April nitong taon, I lost my mother, she died of complication

2011 – ng June naman nito, I decided to enrol Social Work para sundan ang yapak ng nanay ko. ARAL TRABAHO ang drama ko dito! hahaha

2013 – I had my practicum sa rehabilitation center for rape survivors & I was also a community organizer in one municipality in our province

2014 – ng march nito natapos ko na

2014 – by april naman, shonga shonga nako, nagboard review kami, hirap walang facebook, walang blog, wala lahat hahaha

2014 – ng may naman, juice colored, I made a personal review schedule and binigay ko ang katawan ko, kaluluwa, isip at puso ko at itong kapatid ko sasabihan lang akong >>> “papasa kaba? Nagrereview kaba?” (dahil nahuhuli niya akong nanunuod ng juan for all, all for one! Hahaha)

WOW ha sa isip ko! Wala ng natira sakin, walang wala na talaga, nasusuka na ako sa 10 hours a day na sched ko! Hahahaha paakkeeng tapes!!!

Ito na, ito na, sayaw sa left, sayaw sa right, tumbling two times at spleeetttt sabay utot sa bibig! Hahahaha

2014 – ng JUNE 29 & 30 ayan na board exam na namin!

2 days after, I got the result, sssssooooosss!!

Halos lahat ng santo, nakilala na namin, kung san-saan kami napupunta, may aakyat kami ng medyo slight na bundok, sasakay ng habal-habal, tatawid ng 9 ilog para mapuntahan ang mga secret helper natin sa buhay.

After the first day ng board exam, I saw a moth malapit sa kitchen, that’s where I said to myself na, papasa ako! yon ang sign!

YES! It is, after 2 days, finally nakita ko na rin yong name ko and now I can officially practice social work and defend disadvantages people around us.

Sa ngayon, nagpapahinga ako (kasi ala pa akong trabaho! Hahaha) but I am waiting sa appointment ko nalang sa isang national agency. Pero if ako ang tatanongin, gusto ko pa rin magtrabaho sa UNICEF. In God’s time and will. 

Haayysss, gusto ko ng pasokin ang mundo ng Law. hahaha