There is a mixed emotion that I myself don’t even understand what the hell is going on with me and my current emotions. I feel so empty. I think that’s the right word. I tried to search and find myself. I keep on pretending that I am okay, na kaya ko ang lahat even my heart bleeds. i have my friends with me na nakakasabay kong tumawa pero after ng tawa biglang wala na naman, I feel empty pa rin. Maybe dumating na sa point ng life ko that i am ready to re-open my heart again, ready ako pero I am not even sure enough kung kaya ko ba. I know I have my dreams now, I am working with my dreams and even that I found that fulfillment parang may kulang pa rin. I am trying to search what I really want now, I keep on reading, talking pero there’s still kulang in between.
I believed that we don’t need to search for the person we want to love for, it will just come on the time the least we expect to an unexpected place. How long I will have to wait for him. Parang ang bilis ng panahon ngayon, sa dami ng ginagawa natin sa buhay araw2x mas lalong mabilis ang oras lumiit din ang mundo. I felt that hindi na tayo aabot sa 70thbirthday natin para makapagblog ng makapagblog, unlimited nato pero ang buhay natin hindi naman kasing unlimited ng globe or smart. Lol
Midlife sickness or crisis ata tong naramdaman ko ngayon!! Hahaha punyetahs!!! hahaha
May naalala akong quote ni Bob Ong, sabi niya,
ReplyDelete“Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo..Dapat lumandi ka din.”
Hehe i think bob ong was just trying to make a point. Pagdating sa love, dapat hinahanap din kahit paano. Seek and you shall find ika nga.
i didn't know that u are malandi rah hahahaha
ReplyDeleteNalabuan ako sa nararamdaman mo, pero sana alam ko ang kulang sa'yo at may kakayahan akong kumpletohin ito.
ReplyDelete@akoni: ikaw nga nalabuan eh hahaha ano nalang kaya ako hehehehe ikaw naman!! cheers!!
ReplyDeletebaka nga crisis lang yan. phase lang kumbaga. imukmok mo, iinom mo (kung umiinom ka), umiyak ka (kung napapaiyak ka). i'm no expert ah, usually pag feeling ko super lonely ako, i go people-watching. para madistract ako. nakaka-clear ng utak.
ReplyDeleteno matter how shitty your day is, it always has to end.
@chikie: i drink pero dahil i made a promise already to stop drinking kaya ikarir ko na! hehehe ang problema din for crying is napaka trying hard ko actually hahaha bihira lang ako umiyak pero if i cry, buhos todo na!! hehehe see u around chikie!!
ReplyDeletemadami naghihintay sa iyo..
ReplyDeletePero don't expect that having someone is going to make you feel better. If you feel empty while you're single, being in a relationship is not gonna make things better. :) Good luck, dear!
ReplyDeleteaw h0w sad and so emotional and dramatic. sana po maging ok ka na po maging maayos ka na rin pow. be strong lang po alam ko naman na kaya mo yan sis and just a test only from god.
ReplyDelete@arvin: kung makapagreply ka naman talaga kuya!! hahaha
ReplyDelete@stef: yeah i know, baka nga sasakit pa ulo mo lalo when u are in a relationship. hehe
@rhoz: its always a test from god. hehehe