Everyday may not be good...

I will be serious with my post maybe, hoping and let’s just see. Hehehe anyways, maybe I am just so tired today, nakakabadtrip yong schedule sa graduation pictorial and duh?! Hindi kasi porket kayo ang madaming population sa school kaya pinagbibigyan kayo, dahil ano? Kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera? Ganon? Ohhh well, so kung kayo ang nag-aakyat ng pera, ano naman kami? Kami ang nagbibigay ng magandang record ng school for the last 5 years and because of that rising ang number of students ng mga social work ngayon. Charroootts. Anyways, bahala na kayo. Hahaha I’m just tired today siguro, waited for almost 7 hours para sa graduation pictorial na yan. Basta all I know, tapos na, success ang pictorial kahit mukhang ice cream na natutunaw yong mga make-up namin.

Sooooo…. Ammmm… baaannggg… baaamm…

Malapit na ako matapos sa practicum so that means, may ilang araw lang siguro ako makakapagpahinga. Actually natapos ko na ang 500 hours required but I still have requirements to finish pa. another 500 hours again this second sem. Ohh life, ohh sunshine talaga magpakita kana. Echhenng!!

I will be at the center bukas, busy busyhan kami sa upcoming activity ng mga bata, their family day. there were times I look back and naisip ko na oo nga ano hindi ako nakakapagblog nong start ng practicum ko dahil pag uwi ko sa gabi, I always felt so tired and talagang nakakatulog ako at sa umaga naman I have to rush dahil  may pasok ako sa umaga. Student life you know! Hahaha 

Lately lang ito, at naprove ko talaga na super nakakastress nga, I was making a case study of my client and itong client ko ay isa sa mga hard client, meaning may behavioral problem, mga paniniwala na possible oo possible namang hindi. Mahirap kasi nasa teenager na sya and may pag-iisip na talaga, independent though minsan may pagkaisip bata. I find it hard kasi aside from her behavioral problem, yong paniniwala niyang na-hypnotized siya kaya the sexual abuse happened, yes possible yon pero according to the community, it was a “kolto.” It is a religious na paniniwala ng lahat ok lang na gamitin ang isang babae dahil that way eh they will be saved sa araw ng judgment.

Guess what, halos 3 weeks akong nagisip pano ko tapusin ang case study ng batang yon. the night na ginawa ko na ang psychosocial and assessment ng bata, at natapos ako ng 2 am. As per routine ko, lagi kong pinapaalarm yong cellphone ko usually 6:00 am at 6:30am pero that day, hindi ako nagising. Seriously, ilang times na daw nag-alarm yong cellphone ko pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga narinig which is most of the time nagugulat ako kahit isang tunog pa lang. pero that moment, wala as in wala talaga. Doon ko naprove yong super stress ko, yong pagiisip lang about don sa case niya. Ganon kastressful kaya kahit anong kain ko pa, wala pa ren I still feel tired.

It’s good thing now, I chose not to think of requirements kaya ako nakakapagblog. At I swear bukas ng gabi, it’s Saturday night, I will free myself muna siguro from school, from the center, usapang barkada, magiinoman kami kasi ramdam na namin na wala na kaming time sa isa’t isa, stress pa sa buhay practicum hahahaha 

It will be a long day pa ren tomorrow since we will be meeting our center psychologist for the psychological test evaluation of the kids and to plan the banner of PBO supporting the family day of these girls credit to mommy joy. And Thank you very much also to Mommy joy (clink this to see her blog) for sharing her blessings to the girls and for imparting her life and heart to individuals especially in crisis. Thanks mommy joy, God may shower you more blessings, good health to your family and abundance of grace to everyone you love. 

Tele-tahimik-muna

Ayoko muna mag-ingay, walang intro, walang drums, kampana at ano pang anek-anek.

Natatawa rin ako kapag iniisip kong mag-eemote ako, ganyan hahaha but no, no, I hope it’s a big no. lol

It’s in my thoughts now I want “telelalahbells” will remain as a happy person, may happy thoughts and will definitely just laugh with problems and I think that’s what I am doing now kahit sobrang bigat na ng kuyukot ko esteh yong puso ko charing lang hahaha

Kayo, kayo lang eh! Hihihi pero honestly, since I came back sa mundo ng blogging, I started to open my thoughts, lahat na ata kulang nalang maghubad ako pero wag na masara pa tong blogspot dahil sakin. 

Hahaha roootts. And u became all my inspiration kaya tuloy ang ingay-ingay mode ko. char!

Una, I just want to say thank you to all sa walang sawang pagbisita sa blog ko, may sense man o wala ang post ko you never failed to drop and left your footprints, you made a difference sa life ko and alam mo yan. Salamat kaibigan, mga sis, ateh, koyah at mga ka-animals.

It has been months since dito ko nilagay lahat ng rants ko sa buhay and I am grateful that dahil sa blogging at sa inyo, I come to discover a lot of things sa buhay ko, nakaya kong i-separate ang sarili ko, (dual personality ang peg? Hahaha) kung trying hard to be formal kami kasi nga tinitingnan ng maraming tao ang profession namin sa realidad na parang bawal magkamali, dapat lahat ng bagay ay tama, iniiwasang magkamali dahil panget sa mata ng ibang tao, but dito sa mundo ng blogsphere, abah super split na split ang personality ko dito hahaha wala yon, hindi kasama yon dahil mas gugustohin ko yong simpleng ako lang talaga, free to express my thoughts without any judgment, without any doubts and we are all free to share what’s in our mind (facebook lang ba may alam? Lol)  lahat equal, yon ang importante sakin, walang mayaman, walang mahirap lahat ay pantay tayo dito sa mundo ng blogsphere.

Now I am saying that I already have a life here.. chars!! Haha

Sa totoo lang, gutom lang ako now hahaha jowk. There’s just this feeling lang na I once felt this, nakakainis, nakakalito at nagugulohan (charoots) pero hindi ako na-tatae ha. Promise. Hahaha

I am trying now  na maging seryos na. hahaha syet.

Natuwa lang me, a year after I learned to listen again those “love songs” bwahahahahaha natatawa ako pero totoo nga, bakit ba wag ng makialam blog ko to hahaha jowk naiiba na rin ang mood ko, hihihi ohhh well thanked God for the life and love I knew it once na naging matatag ako lalo at nagbigay ng daan para maintindihan ko rin ang ibang tao who have been an alipin ng pag-ibig. Charooks!!

But anyways, tumae lang ako dito sa blog ko este naglabas ng hindi naman sama ng loob but saloobin lang ata. I just want to take this out, yong happiness na hindi mo alam where galing at ano ang pinaghuhugotan char char many char hahaha basta yon na yon talaga, be it, whatever is in your mind, basta yon na talaga! Hahaha

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P.S.

Like I said, I’m glad and happy na naabot mo yan. You got it. Finally, the license, the firm and the life, it is really for you. Basta i am just happy for you, hanggang doon lang siguro.  Your dreams became your reality now, congratulations!  I can't be part of that, anymore. Until then, architect. =)